II am no spring chicken. I have been around this mudball we call home for 40+ years.
Lately, I feel so alienated from it all. Work is a continuous circus of 'yes man' theatrics. Society, at large, is full of selfish, petty people that drain what little emotional, physical, spiritual, and emotional energy I have left after work.
I have really bad tinnitus so it is very difficult to concentrate on books, television, video games, or other popular time sinks. I live inside my headphones and music most days.
Can anybody out there suggest a good escape from the tedium?
I get tired of harassing my friend about this and they are too kind to tell me to deal with it myself. Half, or more, of the time I am with them I am disocociate. Why they put up with me I will never know. I welcome any thoughts about stimulating a little positivity in the midst of the drudgery
And please don't say that I just need to get drunk, stoned, or layed. Alcohol never helps me. I won't do drugs due to random drug screening at work. I am asexual, so sex doesn't do anything for me. (((Life really sucks sometimes.)))