what heart? i'm putting this up so every girl can see how some girls can play the most complex games with something that to me is the most serious thing at all. or was.
ok. yes i am still naive i suppose but only because i don't believe that all this terrible mess is really happeneing to us. it's all for something else, a test of some sort perhaps?
after all her earnest pleading of me not dating anyone else until we grow and decide then if we can work out(not thinking that it would but i'd do anything anyone asked of me). she tries to hide the fact that she's already started dating someone else. her excuse being that she was curious but didn't want to ruin our chances. so if he was better(which all of my manic issues aside, he couldn't be) she was then going to tell me to go to hell. i got this out of her by mistake. she apparently was coming back to atl as well to see her mom and we were going to be flying home on the same day so i was gonna cancel my other tickets to buy some for the airline she was gonna be flying on. before i could even offer this pitiful idea to her she starts acting very strange on the phone. we've seen each other about 4 or 5 times in the past 2 weeks and the last time that i saw her she was acting really weird. turns out she had a date the night before and the night after. so now i'm walking upside down waiting for the train to plow right through me and then i don't know what will happen. i talk tough. i love too much.
ok. yes i am still naive i suppose but only because i don't believe that all this terrible mess is really happeneing to us. it's all for something else, a test of some sort perhaps?
after all her earnest pleading of me not dating anyone else until we grow and decide then if we can work out(not thinking that it would but i'd do anything anyone asked of me). she tries to hide the fact that she's already started dating someone else. her excuse being that she was curious but didn't want to ruin our chances. so if he was better(which all of my manic issues aside, he couldn't be) she was then going to tell me to go to hell. i got this out of her by mistake. she apparently was coming back to atl as well to see her mom and we were going to be flying home on the same day so i was gonna cancel my other tickets to buy some for the airline she was gonna be flying on. before i could even offer this pitiful idea to her she starts acting very strange on the phone. we've seen each other about 4 or 5 times in the past 2 weeks and the last time that i saw her she was acting really weird. turns out she had a date the night before and the night after. so now i'm walking upside down waiting for the train to plow right through me and then i don't know what will happen. i talk tough. i love too much.
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i miss you too...but i'm warm.
i called the other night...left a message very late, very drunk. i knew she wouldn't answer...it was after 5am there...told her about how well things are going...and how i met robin tunney...gave her a copy of 'film'...because it has that 'niagra, niagra' sample in canada...she'll probably sue me now. anyway...i talked about cds and famous people and machines and how it wasn't fair that i missed her so much. oh, and i'm back to mostly vegan...well, that's two out of three resolutions broken in month one...i am nearly finished with the cd though...it has a name...
allegra gellar - the make up artist...sad and silly, huh? it has a ring though...and meaning on more levels than THEIR jobs...the artwork denver is cooking is beautiful...