persuasion

I don't know exactly how this may sound or come out. My mind is in a haze and I can not think very clearly.
I think in a way the only way I am writing my thoughts in this blog is the response I get from alll you wonderful people. I cant bring myself to write in my journal anymore because I get so frustrated and aggravated. I don't know but at any rate between the Chemo and medicine I have been feeling really crappy. I cant wait untill this is all over with and I can be me. My friends want me to go out on Wednesday so I am hoping I feel well enough to go with them. It would be nice to get out.