Life lately has been pretty chaotic.
Work has been trying to fend off the small requests while trying to conquer the larger beasts. Yesterday I had a break through and figured out a way to save myself about seventy hours of programming, so that was nice. Aside from that I'm starting to find that I've hit the point where its really hard for me to learn new languages, not so much not understanding them, as not feeling they are going to benefit me later in life.
Outside of work, I have a ton of projects I've been working on. The first is getting my webhosting situation figured out as I am trying to consolidate all the domains I own under one account. I have alot of web design jobs that I've been slacking on like never before, and its just hard to get motivated to do them. Is it bad that money isn't enough motivation to do work for someone else anymore? The record label has been taking up about 2-3 hours a day for the past two to three weeks. First in trying to figure out a way to have money to put out the CDs, then looking for distribution, then getting after the bands to approve their masters and get artwork together. Finished up Holy Heart Failures last night, so as soon as the master comes in the mail that can be sent out to get pressed. Killer Kadoogan is taking longer than expected, but hopefully a quick trip to Tiffin this weekend will wrap up everything else that needs to be done with that.
I've got a huge desire to make art lately, and read, and just learn again. I feel like I have been pushed into trying to find ways to scrape money together any way possible to make the label work out, and I think I'm burnt out from trying to make money. So tonight I'm just going to take a break from everything, clear my mind, do some drawing, kill a few chapters in Haunted which I still have to finish, and hopefully just kind of get out of this mental quagmoire (i really like that word).
With moving and finding it hard to meet new people, I signed up for a few dating sites. They haven't worked out that great, and it seems even more defeating when that even seems to be not so good. The main hang ups I'm finding in it, or with girls in general that I do actually get the nerve up to talk to, is that I seem to be at a place in my life thats different from everyone, what I'm looking for is something quite different than what every girl I've talked to in I'd say, the past year or so, is looking for.
What I want is a girl with intelligence that makes see things in a new way, a cute face that wears a smile alot, someone that balances a shyness and forward/openness, and just someone that has enough of an interest in art or music that I don't feel like I'm imposing new ideas on them when I mention minor details of either. While this is what I'm looking for I'm also starting to realize I've set myself up to be way busy alot of the time to keep my mind from diving into the darker areas it goes, and that it would almost be difficult to try to jump into something without cutting out some other aspects of my life. I guess the only hope that exists for me is that if/when I find the right girl, everything will fall into place.
Lately I'm also trying to find a new place to live. Our landlord is fighting with her insurance company and is wanting us to sign year long leases and buy renters insurance to keep the living arrangements that we have. While the house is kind of nice and the location is really cool (aside from the hour drive to and from work), I kind of want to try to find something a little nicer. I'm starting to realize that gas heat in the winter is ridiculous, paying for cable entirely on my own was a stupid move, and while living with people isn't bad, I kind of want to cut it down to 2-3 max, if not living on my own again. The only predicament, can I afford to do so? So I'm scoping that out, as well as trying to get a feel for what neighborhoods would be good. As a safety there are some apartments on Hampshire at Coventry that I could always move into if I don't find something I like more. So thats another things on my mind. I kind of would like to find something thats about half way between work and Coventry, maybe a little closer to Coventry, but anything to reduce the $500+ spent a month on gas.
I did get my finances figured out and am back on track to be debt free in the near future. The only thing that could kink that up is car problems, which luckily I haven't had any in a while. With figuring out my finances I should have my car paid off in June or July, and I kind of want to drive it till it gets a little rough and then look into a Toyota Highlander Hybrid. Something not as bad for the environment and better on gas mileage, plus a little extra power and room sounds like a winner.
Shows wise I'm probably going to play it kind of careful the next couple months, as Coachella will likely make up for anything missed. Still gotta buy my two day pass and throw some money in a bank account for gas on the drive back here. I think I'm also going to make a trip to New York City before the Coachella trip. And still am hoping to go to Europe in the late summer/fall.
Alot right now depends on my car's condition and if the record label goes well. I really feel confident with the HHF CD, and really would like to see. After I get three sites for money done I gotta do SS (secret project ..1) and the Imminent Threat Records website, as well as the Holy Heart Failure site (Joshua Davis' Flash to the Core is going to be my bible for that). I also want to redo my website and start blogging, not so much about personal stuff as new things I figure out as a way to kind of keep track of information I come across. I'm hoping once all the sites are done I'll have a decent portfolio together so I can do the online masters thing (and if the label or SS take off well maybe do it seated somewhere). I ran into an old drawing teacher I had at BG here yesterday, and it just got me back in the mindframe that it'd be cool to have the option of teaching.
So, I've been busy. My biggest hang up lately is Need to get web sites done before making stuff for fun, but don't feel creative when it comes to work for other people.
Next week I plan to bump the exercising up to 5 times a week, hopefully it'll have a positive outcome.
I probably won't post anything until after Coachella unless SS gets done and takes off or I meet a girl, so probably in two months when I get back from the San Francisco -> Colorado -> Ohio drive.
Work has been trying to fend off the small requests while trying to conquer the larger beasts. Yesterday I had a break through and figured out a way to save myself about seventy hours of programming, so that was nice. Aside from that I'm starting to find that I've hit the point where its really hard for me to learn new languages, not so much not understanding them, as not feeling they are going to benefit me later in life.
Outside of work, I have a ton of projects I've been working on. The first is getting my webhosting situation figured out as I am trying to consolidate all the domains I own under one account. I have alot of web design jobs that I've been slacking on like never before, and its just hard to get motivated to do them. Is it bad that money isn't enough motivation to do work for someone else anymore? The record label has been taking up about 2-3 hours a day for the past two to three weeks. First in trying to figure out a way to have money to put out the CDs, then looking for distribution, then getting after the bands to approve their masters and get artwork together. Finished up Holy Heart Failures last night, so as soon as the master comes in the mail that can be sent out to get pressed. Killer Kadoogan is taking longer than expected, but hopefully a quick trip to Tiffin this weekend will wrap up everything else that needs to be done with that.
I've got a huge desire to make art lately, and read, and just learn again. I feel like I have been pushed into trying to find ways to scrape money together any way possible to make the label work out, and I think I'm burnt out from trying to make money. So tonight I'm just going to take a break from everything, clear my mind, do some drawing, kill a few chapters in Haunted which I still have to finish, and hopefully just kind of get out of this mental quagmoire (i really like that word).
With moving and finding it hard to meet new people, I signed up for a few dating sites. They haven't worked out that great, and it seems even more defeating when that even seems to be not so good. The main hang ups I'm finding in it, or with girls in general that I do actually get the nerve up to talk to, is that I seem to be at a place in my life thats different from everyone, what I'm looking for is something quite different than what every girl I've talked to in I'd say, the past year or so, is looking for.
What I want is a girl with intelligence that makes see things in a new way, a cute face that wears a smile alot, someone that balances a shyness and forward/openness, and just someone that has enough of an interest in art or music that I don't feel like I'm imposing new ideas on them when I mention minor details of either. While this is what I'm looking for I'm also starting to realize I've set myself up to be way busy alot of the time to keep my mind from diving into the darker areas it goes, and that it would almost be difficult to try to jump into something without cutting out some other aspects of my life. I guess the only hope that exists for me is that if/when I find the right girl, everything will fall into place.
Lately I'm also trying to find a new place to live. Our landlord is fighting with her insurance company and is wanting us to sign year long leases and buy renters insurance to keep the living arrangements that we have. While the house is kind of nice and the location is really cool (aside from the hour drive to and from work), I kind of want to try to find something a little nicer. I'm starting to realize that gas heat in the winter is ridiculous, paying for cable entirely on my own was a stupid move, and while living with people isn't bad, I kind of want to cut it down to 2-3 max, if not living on my own again. The only predicament, can I afford to do so? So I'm scoping that out, as well as trying to get a feel for what neighborhoods would be good. As a safety there are some apartments on Hampshire at Coventry that I could always move into if I don't find something I like more. So thats another things on my mind. I kind of would like to find something thats about half way between work and Coventry, maybe a little closer to Coventry, but anything to reduce the $500+ spent a month on gas.
I did get my finances figured out and am back on track to be debt free in the near future. The only thing that could kink that up is car problems, which luckily I haven't had any in a while. With figuring out my finances I should have my car paid off in June or July, and I kind of want to drive it till it gets a little rough and then look into a Toyota Highlander Hybrid. Something not as bad for the environment and better on gas mileage, plus a little extra power and room sounds like a winner.
Shows wise I'm probably going to play it kind of careful the next couple months, as Coachella will likely make up for anything missed. Still gotta buy my two day pass and throw some money in a bank account for gas on the drive back here. I think I'm also going to make a trip to New York City before the Coachella trip. And still am hoping to go to Europe in the late summer/fall.
Alot right now depends on my car's condition and if the record label goes well. I really feel confident with the HHF CD, and really would like to see. After I get three sites for money done I gotta do SS (secret project ..1) and the Imminent Threat Records website, as well as the Holy Heart Failure site (Joshua Davis' Flash to the Core is going to be my bible for that). I also want to redo my website and start blogging, not so much about personal stuff as new things I figure out as a way to kind of keep track of information I come across. I'm hoping once all the sites are done I'll have a decent portfolio together so I can do the online masters thing (and if the label or SS take off well maybe do it seated somewhere). I ran into an old drawing teacher I had at BG here yesterday, and it just got me back in the mindframe that it'd be cool to have the option of teaching.
So, I've been busy. My biggest hang up lately is Need to get web sites done before making stuff for fun, but don't feel creative when it comes to work for other people.
Next week I plan to bump the exercising up to 5 times a week, hopefully it'll have a positive outcome.
I probably won't post anything until after Coachella unless SS gets done and takes off or I meet a girl, so probably in two months when I get back from the San Francisco -> Colorado -> Ohio drive.