perilouspup

Okay, so nobody wanted to play my game in my last post. Perhaps I made it too obscure or too difficult. But my shower impersonation was of Bully. I know we don't share a lot in common, but I was inspired by her shower black & whites. Of course the shower arousal thing is always a bit different for girls and guys. I am reminded of that SNL skit (which I could not find on YouTube) of Herbal Essence for Men.

What's noo?

Just some intimate experiences I thought I might share.
Yesterday I was walking around the base of my hill and saw a pair of fawns standing in the clearing eating leaves off the tree. We stopped and looked at each other.
I got the idea in my head that I wanted to see if I could pet one. So I stepped forward and kept my side to it. I looked shyly indirectly at it and quietly said "come on" and smiled and coaxed. One fawn jumped back a few steps into the woods. The other looked at me and cocked its head. It wagged its tail and gave me a play bow and took steps toward me. I took a few steps closer too and soon we were about 2 feet from each other.

I mentioned this experience to my mom later as I picked her up from the airport. Her response:

First of all, mom, it's Lyme Disease, second, I was trying to have fun. Why must my mom be the harbinger of anti-fun all the time? For Christ's sake, she grew up with sugar gliders and snakes as pets, I can't pet a deer as a 35 year-old?

Anyway... my mom took a trip to Wisconsin, just west of the Fond du Lac area at my parent's friend's summer home which is on a lake. So my mom was fishing all week. Caught absolutely zero, but had fun. It would be nice one day to live by a lake and go fishing whenever. My grandfather and his marine biologist friends had a man-made lake in the country where they would do study and research on Illinois ecosystems. How cool it must have been to have friends that you worked with to have these cabins by the lake to spend seasons doing research and having fun. My parents were sad that when he died, my grandma couldn't live around all of his things, so she sold the house and property, sold his research equipment, sold his darkroom and sets of large format cameras. But she became pretty bitter after he died, which lasted 13 years until she too passed away.

So, I struggle with personal goals. While I am a planner, I have a hard time seeing what is coming down the road. If someone asks, "where do you see yourself in 5 years?" I don't know how to answer on any level. What I want for myself is this:

1. To put myself on more of a holistic path in regard to my lifestyle.
2. To align myself with friends who are also on different stages of that path.
3. To find some things in life I am passionate about. Not to be so overwhelmed by the limits of my talents and find ways to expand my thinking.
4. To overcome pain and suffering in my past that I carry with me. I want to heal. Again, I think it's all a part of expanding my way of thinking.
5. What else? I am not sure if I will be on here in 5 years. Too soon to tell. Though some I know have been on here 5 years and they love this site. So who knows.

Just wondering, what is the next SG event in Havana going to be like? Will it be full of drama like the last couple have been reported to be? I vote that there should be a side-party in case certain individuals start getting possessive and crazy. Because though it would be nice to meet people, I don't really want to be met with attitude, and I DO realize I have a record of attracting negative attention from drunken people.

[UPDATE]
Starbucks & Fighting for pole position at the cheapest gas station
Okay, so yes, I feel jaded by Starbucks because I was written up by my former manager because I used FMLA time to help my dad out when he was mentally sick and suicidal. Now, I can't work for Starbucks. BUT, every time I go into a Starbucks for espresso, it seems I am given a bitter shot. Pulled shot that sat out too long, so it tastes like fucking dirt! I never gave customers that kind of crap. People... if they give you bitter espresso. Hand it back and tell them to do it over. Shots should not be over 7 seconds when mixing with a liquid.

Also, I have to say, people are nuts. The station my my place was $2.75 for gas and was the lowest station around (it went up to $3.10). One tank emptied. But people were lining up and yelling at each other. People were really mad at the first-come-first-serve nature of the establishment and I felt like there was going to be some head-bashing.

Please. If you feel you need to come after anyone with a loaded gun, I can give you an address....

Good luck working out that anger!

How far must one go to get away from all the noise?