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"Within the past few weeks, I've been thinking a lot about what I'm doing here. I've even though of just ditching all my stuff and driving back to Washington.
I'm sure half of you say, "ugh, what a stupid thing to do" and the others say, "do it, we miss you!" :p
I really don't know what I should do. Everyone says, "do what will make you happy" but...for now, I'm not even sure of that. It sounds stupid, but it's true.
I came to California to go to school and because of financial issues, I couldn't even keep going. So now I'm floating around here, doing nothing at a job I don't particularly like, making barely any money, blah blah blah blah.
I did email my school last week and today to see if there was any way I could go back and they seem to think I can. It'll probably involve tons of money, I'm guessing. Ughhhh.
I guess I should just go to the meeting and see what they have to say, although I know there's no way I'll be able to afford paying rent and going to school at the same time. I just feel like I'm doing NOTHING here. At all. And it sucks.
I don't even know why I'm rambling about this on MYSPACE of all places. I just don't really have anyone else here to tell, and everyone is too busy in their own whatever to worry about it. (and no, that doesn't mean some other shmuck should worry about my stupid problems, so yeah.)
xo"
Anyway, I've been reading a little passage from Alice in Wonderland every day when I get to work. I love that book
"Within the past few weeks, I've been thinking a lot about what I'm doing here. I've even though of just ditching all my stuff and driving back to Washington.
I'm sure half of you say, "ugh, what a stupid thing to do" and the others say, "do it, we miss you!" :p
I really don't know what I should do. Everyone says, "do what will make you happy" but...for now, I'm not even sure of that. It sounds stupid, but it's true.
I came to California to go to school and because of financial issues, I couldn't even keep going. So now I'm floating around here, doing nothing at a job I don't particularly like, making barely any money, blah blah blah blah.
I did email my school last week and today to see if there was any way I could go back and they seem to think I can. It'll probably involve tons of money, I'm guessing. Ughhhh.
I guess I should just go to the meeting and see what they have to say, although I know there's no way I'll be able to afford paying rent and going to school at the same time. I just feel like I'm doing NOTHING here. At all. And it sucks.
I don't even know why I'm rambling about this on MYSPACE of all places. I just don't really have anyone else here to tell, and everyone is too busy in their own whatever to worry about it. (and no, that doesn't mean some other shmuck should worry about my stupid problems, so yeah.)
xo"
Anyway, I've been reading a little passage from Alice in Wonderland every day when I get to work. I love that book
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zgrat:
it can be tough to be on your own sometimes. a friend of mine is going through something similar up in berkeley now. just do what you feel is best
contrary:
Having an undesirable job can definately hand you over the feeling of nothingness. I don't know how many seconds of my time at work I devote to thinking of other things I could be doing, and even though I'm in school, its a very slow walk at the moment toward where I'd like to be. But the level of desired progress we can put on ourselves can be way too heavy sometimes. Take things one moment at a time, keep your options in sight. 