pepperjanuary

I'm fucking screwed.

I need a car really bad. The problem is I can't afford one yet. I was going to wait until I saved up a few thousand to buy a car outright, but my job is too far away for me to keep taking the bus. Then add in that I'm trying to go to school too doesn't help. I can't do both fulltime with no car and still have time to sleep. So then I tried getting a car from a dealer and making payments. I asked my dad to help me find a place but he just wants me to borrow thousands of dollars from my brother and buy a car. I'm not borrowing that much money from anyone, let alone anyone in this family. Fuck that. Shit, I need a car though. Somethings gunnna have to give because otherwise i'm gunna lose this job and I worked so hard for it. Or i'll have to quit school and I don't wanna do that again. I got a really sweet deal this semester and every semester until I finish if I don't fuck up. I need to keep it together.

There has to be a way to get a car now. I've seen lots of people without jobs, money, or teeth driving nice cars. WTF??? Why can't I get one? I have a job and teeth! And I think enough for a downpayment. Maybe not. Shit. Are you there God? It's me, Jenna. I need your fucking help. HELP!