U know wat? i have been trying so very hard 2 b positive, buuuuuut, I always seem 2 come back 2 this same place.........Unhappiness, why do I seem 2 b followed around by solitude ? there just seems 2 b so many phony people around me. most people ignore it like a car parked on the street but am I crazy 2 see it all the time and b offended? I mean even going out 2 just have fun I run into people telling me outright lies 2 my face! is this a normal part of fun and partying? Or am I crazy 2 notice this shit! should I lighten up? am I being too critical? I hope I am right in believing that I need to get out of this town and things will b different, I know what u r thinking " it is the same everywhwere" U do not know where I live and the history surrounding this city. I travel all over the country for work and I can honestly say that this is the most uptight, rude , deppressed place that I have ever been. I am so not fucking blowing this up, cos I know, I am just tired of "pretending 2 b happy" want that shit 4 real!!! damn I didn't want 2 go off on this site but I really don't have any other place except rambling 2 myself in the fucking mirror, that gets me real far. sigh. goodnite all 
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I just read your journal and ya people are like that everywhere. I'm wondering if people like you and me have a better perception of this or is everybody else just turning the cheek to it?
Did anybody ever tell you that you look like a mix between Tommy Lee and Sully Erna of Godsmack?
[Edited on Jan 29, 2005 12:34PM]