pennycandy

So. Lots of things have been changing around here. I kind of like the changes, as I understand them. But then again, I'm not a SG, and I don't really have to worry about shooting a set that I KNOW is worth $100.

I still want to be a SuicideGirl. I've got to talk to my boyfriend about it. He was all for it, but now that I'm seriously getting to the point of shooting a set, he's changing his mind. I understand, but I don't think he understands why I want to be on this site.

I know my friends love me, and my family, and I get on with everyone at work really well. It just seems like they always put up a buffer when we go places or are introducing me to someone new. Say things like, "She's different, but you'll like her." "She's unique, be prepaired." or something like that. Like they have to distance themselves from me, talk about how yeah, we hang out, but I'm not like her. This community not only accepts me, but appriciates(sp?) me.

I don't get that anywhere else. I'm from a tiny town, and there is noone else around here that really gets me. This place is kind like a safe haven. Where I can come be me, and not feel like I have to censor myself. I don't want to use this site to further me into modeling or get my name out there. I want to be appriciated for me, and I think this site is the place for it. Plus I like being naked, playing dress up, and having my picture taken.