pennycandy

Ugh, I was so depressed last night. My boyfriend's best friend's girlfriend and I sat around for six hours, guy bashing. Then when we tried to get ahold of our guys, they weren't answering their phones. I was really down before all of this. Just life; gaining weight, not being able to afford my gym membership anymore and the gym being closed all the time anyway, being screwed over by Kelley fucking services again, and my friends all growing up not having time for fun anymore getting married having kids buying houses.

When Mikey did get ahold of me, it wasn't to say, "Hey, I want to see you, come out here and party with us." It was "Kate's going to be home in an hour, if you're interested." I told him it was kind of late, if he had wantted me around to acctually see me, he would have called sooner. So, I didn't go out. Until Kate called me What got me was when she said, "Come on Penny. If you won't come for Mike, come for me." LOL! I adore that Kate.

She asked me if I wantted to marry Mike. I don't know anymore. I've never wantted to get married, I just want to find someone to spend my life with, raise a family. I'm not Christian, so I don't "need" to get married to do that, and I don't care about some stupid piece of paper to say I'm in love and commited to this one person. And Michigan doesn't allow gay marriage, so it all a sham anyway, if it was really about love gay marriage would be allowed. But anyway......I took a big drinik and sighed, answered "Not today, I don't." We laughed, and she asked why I was so down. I told her Mike was selfish, and he is. She said her husband is the most selfish person she's ever met. LOL!

At some point Mike wandered into the room, we were in Kate and Steve's room, just us. Kate asked him when the two of us were going to get married, and be with eachother for eternity....buy the house with 40 acres down the street so we could all be friends forever and never move away. LOL Mike said, "How about we get this all figured out by Tuesday?" Kate got so excited, she bounced on the bed and screamed "You're marrying my Penny on Tuesday and you guys will be together for eternity?" He said "Yeah, not neccisarily this Tuesday, but Tuesday." lol. Kate said we have to get married because Mike is her favorite, and she loves him, and because I'm her favorite and she loves me just as much Oh my Kate, she is so sweet.

Kate was having issues with Steve because he never gets jealous. Sonny tried to kiss her, and she told Steve. He just shrugged his shoulders and said, "Okay." If Mike never got jealous, that would drive me nuts. He explained it was because he knows she loves him, and she's his and he is hers. That was sweet, but I can see where she's coming from. Kate said to Mike, "If I make out with you right now, he wouldn't even care." Then she asked Mike if he would make out with her. Mike's eyes got really big, and he laughed, a nervious laugh, said "Uhhhh, no......" She asked if it was because she was married to his friend. Mike answered "That's part of it." She kept asking for reasons, since that was only part of it. He kept lauging and answering. She asked him, "Is it because you love Penny?" He smiled, looked at me and reached for my hand Kate awed, and said, "Oh, its because he loves you." lol

Later in the night, after everyone had left, it was just the four of us, Kate, Steve, Mike and I, Sonny (the same Sonny that had tried to kiss Kate) called Mike. He asked to for my number and if he could talk to me. He called my boyfriend to get my number!!!! lol As Sonny was on the phone Mike told us who it was and what he wantted. Kate took the phone. Sonny asked if it was me. Kate told him no, and he couldn't talk to me because Mike and I are together, we're perfect together, and he can't have my number. LOL! She is so awesome.

She doesn't have many friends up here, she moved up here to marry Steve from Detroit. So, she gets depressed sometimes. Last night she told me I was one of the best friends she has had in her life She also told me, for that month or so that Mike and I weren't together she called him everyday to tell him he should get back together with me. He told her, "I don't see anything wrong with her, I just don't know if I want to marry her." Then her face lit up and she said, "And one day Steve-O called me. Said, "I have good news."" She asked what and Steve said, "Mike and Penny are back together."

I would have been mad at Mike all night if it hadn't have been for Kate. Somethings she told me, things he's said and done when I'm not around or out of it (too drunk to know or remember) made me really happy to be with him.

Wow, this is a boring blog. I just want to write it down, to remember. I hope no one really read this, and if you did....lol, sorry.