Look at this picture Libby sent my way from Halloween.
She has some really good ones of me and Dan dancing. Lol, in one he has his hand on my ass, which is pretty much bared (just my fishnets and gold tights covering it) 'cause he was pulling my skirt down. And an awesome one of me, my Trevor, and my most favorite Clinton. OH! I almost forgot! She got one of Steph and I giving Mike a lap dance lol. What a great night.
Crazy things are happening on the Mike front.........he's telling me things that I wantted to hear, but......maybe it is too late I love him. I honestly love him and want nothing more than to be with him......I thought. He's telling me that's what he wants, and he has told me he loves me, I don't know how many times today. He's never told me he loves me before (not in the way that he was saying it today). Says he's afraid of comitment, and being with me. He needs me to help him, get over his fear and be with me.
I told him to learn from the mistakes he made when he was with me, so he can be better for the next girl. I thought he was just saying those things because I opened his eyes to the shity way he treated me sometimes. He told me he doesn't want there to be a next girl.
I don't know what to do. I think we both agreed that we should be friends, and if we are supposed to be together then, we will be, if not.....then we'll both have gain a true friend. Someone to alway be there for eachother and care for eachother, even if we can't be together.
I don't want to be trapped in a "game" that is going no where.
I was getting so happy and making really big plans. I was going to move back to my farm *cry*.......this summer. I had planned on starting an internet search for jobs in Muskegone, but instead I went rounds with him for a hour and a half. I want to be here for him, I want to be his everything, always. But, I can't, if it isn't give and take. I can't if everything is going to be the same as it was. It didn't work. I gave everything of me, and he didn't realize he was just using me.
I love him though. With everything in me, I love him.
She has some really good ones of me and Dan dancing. Lol, in one he has his hand on my ass, which is pretty much bared (just my fishnets and gold tights covering it) 'cause he was pulling my skirt down. And an awesome one of me, my Trevor, and my most favorite Clinton. OH! I almost forgot! She got one of Steph and I giving Mike a lap dance lol. What a great night.
Crazy things are happening on the Mike front.........he's telling me things that I wantted to hear, but......maybe it is too late I love him. I honestly love him and want nothing more than to be with him......I thought. He's telling me that's what he wants, and he has told me he loves me, I don't know how many times today. He's never told me he loves me before (not in the way that he was saying it today). Says he's afraid of comitment, and being with me. He needs me to help him, get over his fear and be with me.
I told him to learn from the mistakes he made when he was with me, so he can be better for the next girl. I thought he was just saying those things because I opened his eyes to the shity way he treated me sometimes. He told me he doesn't want there to be a next girl.
I don't know what to do. I think we both agreed that we should be friends, and if we are supposed to be together then, we will be, if not.....then we'll both have gain a true friend. Someone to alway be there for eachother and care for eachother, even if we can't be together.
I don't want to be trapped in a "game" that is going no where.
I was getting so happy and making really big plans. I was going to move back to my farm *cry*.......this summer. I had planned on starting an internet search for jobs in Muskegone, but instead I went rounds with him for a hour and a half. I want to be here for him, I want to be his everything, always. But, I can't, if it isn't give and take. I can't if everything is going to be the same as it was. It didn't work. I gave everything of me, and he didn't realize he was just using me.
I love him though. With everything in me, I love him.
TRULY OUTRAGEOUS
Where are the rest of the Holograms?