pennycandy

Sooo....he called me Puddin' Pop. It has been like a month and half since he called me that, or Pumpkin, or Beautiful or all the other things he used to call me. I don't know how I feel about that. I adore him. He knows that, but I don't get him. He dumped me, but said he would like it if I waited for him.......what am I suppoesed to do? I don't want to just go back to him. I mean, I do, SO badly, want to go back to him. I don't know if I can trust him though. He did the same thing to her, and I know how he treats other girls.
I want to think I'm different, but I thought that the first time around, and he got rid of me. God, I want him, but I don't want to be fucked over again. I give him everything. All that I have to give, and more. I feel like he....I don't know. He gives, but only under his terms. He hung out with my friends twice, we were with his friends like four nights a week (I like his friends, a lot, they are great fun, so I'm not complaining), and it was just us the other three (yeah, I'd drive fourty minutes everyday to see him).
I know I shouldn't go back, but.....God it is killing me to not be with him. Everyone keeps telling me I can do better, but I don't see how it can get better than him. He always knows what to say, what to do, how to make me happy. No one gets me like he does.