"I'm not manic I just have a high IQ"
"...Thats why I'm capable of talking to you like this"
The doctors listened to me make the same point every day but unless they where systematic esoteric thinkers its unlikely they actualy heard me until I had been there from 7/28/07-8/10/07
The mental health hold on floor seven where every patients name started with room #7###
The only Open window was the room I called the smoker's pit
Even when I was under line of site because I did what ever I fucking wanted to even if I was in line of site (regulated to where the staff cubicles could see you) I could say can I or may I or I need a cigarette and they would let me go to the corner of sanctuary the "quiet place" where there was a computer a trampoline a exercise bike and the smokers pit
Thank god I "have" this adiction that could make me angry and dangerous if I don't releive some steam through it
Colorado University Hospitol it was nicve working with you but your a bunch of fucking mind washing ritous whores who I only like because I got payed 35 dollars to give 5 tubes of my blood to messure nicotine receptors in bipolar patients and you let me hang out with the coolest crazy people I'll love for life esspecialy if I never see them again but Robert A.fter D.eath my Bi polar life mate who wants me but's afraid to have me...I got over the thought of loosing u the night I decided I always wanted to travel with you so if I never see you again fine...but the thought that u could be just like my friend cris who went with me on the best road trip of my life and I only really talked to again when I took his girlfriend to visit him in jail and now that he's out of jail I don't even know how to contact and don't want to mentaly call because I don't want him to think I'm trying to chain him down like he used to when I'd do that shit. You remind me of alot of aspects of him even some of the expressions u said (not verbatum) "I bought a 900 dollar car for 9,000dollars" when I told you how I use internet wigi on the windows you told me you made for me we fell madly inlove then what I got over in a night (loss potential) U where tormented over for days...I thought it was all a joke because I told u in the notes we where passing "you are a clepto maniac I am a zombie who eats rice crispy treat brains" Kill my mind hack me to bits I love my axe I love my cousins I am a mexican Que via VIVA Dia DE Los Muertos....after your one note and my five or so between the rooms next door I ran into u in the hall way you asked me to talk to u in the pit...I told you in 20 minutes I'd meet u there well turns out I got there early...after keeping only the sweet pants u gave me on and wearing the rest of my real clothes that where brough to me that day................
Tears run down my cheaks
I feel this noose around my neck as I cry and gag for weaping willows sorrow that's though alone reminds me of the pollen that gags me in asthmatic panic
I want to die I want us to be in the dark
never apart
not like this your afraid of this
In my dream I told the dark ones what I want they showed me you the same week
forever I must keep this
I can't chain your down
thats why you always wear a phrown
unless your with me in m,y eyes and can see I don't tell lies
your own ties haunt your waking dreams
The pull you at your seems
Clepto maniac of my dreams
Perhaps a Manic who sees no seams can pull together your dreams
She will cry knowing your lost and apart at such a cost
She will remember her first real date Tim brother of Paul Dead Juggaloe who knows it all
When an extention cord broke his fall
The wriath came and he left it all
now I strangle my own neck when dreaming of this concept
every night awakened by dreams at a rising suns moon beems
I remember the broken dreams
Lies of Idolists converting perfection seams
These Judges do not have to exploit if we know no dedgredation
>>>>>>......I promised you I'd make you a free e-mail acount u could read what I wrote to u some day I will do so now .........Remember the first thing I said to you (I knew you where a ninja even though Ur not down) "Have you heard the Rob ICE album Bipolar" a few munites later you walked out of the pit as I was settling in....."Good buy Robin Hood Prince of theives"
No one had told me anything about you I had no fucking clue who u where but I saw myself in you and I tried to assert that in my pscitzo Bipolar 1 fasion
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Robert A(thenamemydadwasgoingtonamemeifiwasmale)Demartino
I heart your ass blood and want your rose quartz you proposed to me with then took back after I bled inside it<_---------GIVE me Your BRAIN!!!!!!CHOMP CHOPM cracked pepper and olive triscuts really don't taiste the same as your taiste I've never taisted except for your stripper sweet pants I'm wearing
Really no one ever challenges me I want a Klepto Maniac Brain to rip mine to peices until we're in bliss but I fear our fear and strength may never touch again
OMFG some one shoot me in the head right now I'm way too sappy
"...Thats why I'm capable of talking to you like this"
The doctors listened to me make the same point every day but unless they where systematic esoteric thinkers its unlikely they actualy heard me until I had been there from 7/28/07-8/10/07
The mental health hold on floor seven where every patients name started with room #7###
The only Open window was the room I called the smoker's pit
Even when I was under line of site because I did what ever I fucking wanted to even if I was in line of site (regulated to where the staff cubicles could see you) I could say can I or may I or I need a cigarette and they would let me go to the corner of sanctuary the "quiet place" where there was a computer a trampoline a exercise bike and the smokers pit
Thank god I "have" this adiction that could make me angry and dangerous if I don't releive some steam through it
Colorado University Hospitol it was nicve working with you but your a bunch of fucking mind washing ritous whores who I only like because I got payed 35 dollars to give 5 tubes of my blood to messure nicotine receptors in bipolar patients and you let me hang out with the coolest crazy people I'll love for life esspecialy if I never see them again but Robert A.fter D.eath my Bi polar life mate who wants me but's afraid to have me...I got over the thought of loosing u the night I decided I always wanted to travel with you so if I never see you again fine...but the thought that u could be just like my friend cris who went with me on the best road trip of my life and I only really talked to again when I took his girlfriend to visit him in jail and now that he's out of jail I don't even know how to contact and don't want to mentaly call because I don't want him to think I'm trying to chain him down like he used to when I'd do that shit. You remind me of alot of aspects of him even some of the expressions u said (not verbatum) "I bought a 900 dollar car for 9,000dollars" when I told you how I use internet wigi on the windows you told me you made for me we fell madly inlove then what I got over in a night (loss potential) U where tormented over for days...I thought it was all a joke because I told u in the notes we where passing "you are a clepto maniac I am a zombie who eats rice crispy treat brains" Kill my mind hack me to bits I love my axe I love my cousins I am a mexican Que via VIVA Dia DE Los Muertos....after your one note and my five or so between the rooms next door I ran into u in the hall way you asked me to talk to u in the pit...I told you in 20 minutes I'd meet u there well turns out I got there early...after keeping only the sweet pants u gave me on and wearing the rest of my real clothes that where brough to me that day................
Tears run down my cheaks
I feel this noose around my neck as I cry and gag for weaping willows sorrow that's though alone reminds me of the pollen that gags me in asthmatic panic
I want to die I want us to be in the dark
never apart
not like this your afraid of this
In my dream I told the dark ones what I want they showed me you the same week
forever I must keep this
I can't chain your down
thats why you always wear a phrown
unless your with me in m,y eyes and can see I don't tell lies
your own ties haunt your waking dreams
The pull you at your seems
Clepto maniac of my dreams
Perhaps a Manic who sees no seams can pull together your dreams
She will cry knowing your lost and apart at such a cost
She will remember her first real date Tim brother of Paul Dead Juggaloe who knows it all
When an extention cord broke his fall
The wriath came and he left it all
now I strangle my own neck when dreaming of this concept
every night awakened by dreams at a rising suns moon beems
I remember the broken dreams
Lies of Idolists converting perfection seams
These Judges do not have to exploit if we know no dedgredation
>>>>>>......I promised you I'd make you a free e-mail acount u could read what I wrote to u some day I will do so now .........Remember the first thing I said to you (I knew you where a ninja even though Ur not down) "Have you heard the Rob ICE album Bipolar" a few munites later you walked out of the pit as I was settling in....."Good buy Robin Hood Prince of theives"
No one had told me anything about you I had no fucking clue who u where but I saw myself in you and I tried to assert that in my pscitzo Bipolar 1 fasion
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Robert A(thenamemydadwasgoingtonamemeifiwasmale)Demartino
I heart your ass blood and want your rose quartz you proposed to me with then took back after I bled inside it<_---------GIVE me Your BRAIN!!!!!!CHOMP CHOPM cracked pepper and olive triscuts really don't taiste the same as your taiste I've never taisted except for your stripper sweet pants I'm wearing
Really no one ever challenges me I want a Klepto Maniac Brain to rip mine to peices until we're in bliss but I fear our fear and strength may never touch again
OMFG some one shoot me in the head right now I'm way too sappy
penguin17:
Tunnel of love that was me in 2003 the same year I went to the gathering and lost chris in the woods on acid
penguin17:
I just took my 10mg abilify I'm finally off the intensity of 5-3mg respridol there's some lithium some where in there too