pelirojo

From my limited experience, friends with benefits can be an even more meaningful relationship than the traditional girlfriend/boyfriend or commited relationship. I had a great and belief changing experience with a past friend/love. She called it two friends enjoying each other's bodies. It was mutually supportive and exciting, especially since her boyfriend and all of us lived in the same house. What's strange is even though she is long gone to Florida, her now ex-boyfriend and I have been good friends for years now. No, he has no clue, and I do not have a guilty conscious at all and would never tell him. It lasted 4 months or so, we both knew it wasn't going to last forever, but really enjoyed each other's company to the fullest. It was an eye opener for me to realize that there really are different kinds of loving someone than boyfriend/girlfriend or marriage. And at the same time much more than just fucking. Sure she was seeing somebody else besides me and her boyfriend, that never really mattered. I hooked up with someone else for a while, and we just kept those relationships seperate from our own. Besides worrying about getting caught it was a very trusting, easy relationship. She eventually moved to florida to go to school, we kept in touch for a while, but parted ways. One of those friendships where we might not see each other again, but know without words that we still care about each other. I'm not sorry at all, maybe it was one of those meant to be experiences, shit I don't know. One thing she said I will never forget. I think to most people it would sound sick, twisted, perverted, wrong, whatever. She told me she might be pregnant, and if she was she would raise the child as her own with her then boyfriend and not tell him anything. The point is she truly meant what she said to me. She and/or I maybe fucked up or crazy, but that is the nicest most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me. At the time of our affair or whatever it's called I was completley infactuated madly in love with her cousin from colombia. I learned there are different kinds of love, and not just saying it, but really being in love. I can not handle having an intimate relationship with more than one woman at a time. I have never cheated on any woman I was in a commited relationship ever. Break-ups are, like the song says is hard to do. Even if you have a mutual one and remain friends, it is hard. Break-ups for me, are such a required learning experience in life. I re-evalute my relationship, think of the posistives, and negatives, sometimes learn how much I really cared for or loved that person. It's powerful, we may not remain friends or any of that shit with are exes, but for me even with a difficult break-up, I'm still going to care about and wish the best for her. Hating someone you used to care about or love is a waste of time. We're all only human.