its 2:48 im back home im in my bedroom it feels nothing realy special i havent gone out clubbing and its awefull plus i did spent the day outside downtown i dont know much about how to aproach a girl like when to decide to even try to make her feel special or whatever pops out in my mind like if everyone i know would just shut the fuck up im pretty sure something could come out of it like in a way i like to remember things more then be constently reminded of what hapends around my house or where i live im not sure if the suburbs is something realy awesome im more of someone who likes to take a hike everytime i can so no one gets leave behind i was at this place in downtown and i ask this person how much did cost this thing she asnwer what thing i said that thing she said 52 $ i said alright and she answered me some dumb thing about how i was going to take the ride so i said im not i wanted to know the price thats where i went outside and started to think if there is something i cant stand is poeple sometimes becoz i think the girl i will love is more then a tousands years of compolicated sentences that sometimes i realy get in y mind so fuck it right what if i was more into music like that could hapend right but no i will last a little bit more then 2 hours in a nightclub becoz thats how this city works if u want to express yourself forget about it or your a hipster or a realy dumb inteleigent human being that likes things like back to the future or the movie seven what makes it even dumber when u have to get back home and realize most of the punks arent getting out of the redlight for months except maybe if they have to change citys so where do u get by or i get by im not realy sure i will constently be aware of stuff like cute girls beautyfull landscape or weird conversations like do u like this song do u like to dance what did u do last night or even read a book and make it into a long week where i eat less and drive around the city where i might figure out why its so akward to be soak in a city other then live the rich life i might find out why im writing this some other day somtimes i just want to punch the wall or hit my head against a the floor jump all around the house then sit or lay down on my bed make it real funny so my parents will see me or even a girlfriend or my best friend a realy nice weather always makes it something to recall but no we most of the time just hapend coz its like this or you banalize everything that hapends to you becoz of differences or just becoz your even to fucking lost like a punk or u just started to understand the most complicated series of number that make your paycheck