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I have been really afraid to put my real emotions out here for people to just read. Even though the people that do read it are my friends and I love them all dearly.

First off.....Many hugs and kisses go out to bestest friend Whitewidow. She made me smile and cry with my testimonial. I love ya girl

Ok so what I am feeling. I have known this guy for over 5 years and there has been something about him ever since I met him. He has always made me feel loved, safe and comfortable in my skin. In a world where girls, like myself, aren't exactly what society calls "attractive," he just loves me. (oh this is gonna make me cry) He understands me and accepts everything, even the horrible moods and imperfections. Isn't that what loves is in the end? Loving the imperfections and accepting the person for who they are and who they will become.

I am such a different person around him. Always smiling and happy and I feel sexy. I would do anything in my power to make him happy and the sooner he is here with me, the better.

So you all know, we did try this once before. I broke it off because I felt so young and because of my family. Well when he decided to come here, I thought this was my time to either say goodbye or fall in love again. When I seen him, it was over, I Loved him all over again. Now that we are different and grown up, it is better. I have no reservations or regrets anymore. The time apart was meant to be and the sadness happened to make me stronger. It really is true, if you love someone you do have to let them go to see if they come back to you. He has come back and I will not let him go this time.

Yes I will marry him. Why? How?...well I just know he is what I want and who I want. Something inside of me just knows and that is all I can say about it.

Ok so that is it for a while....Love to all