Well sorry guys I don't have any great pictures to fill my journal with so it will be another boring written one.
Got back from Chicago and had a great time. Spent most of the time with my old friend, which was so needed right now.
Work: Yeah well you all know how well that is. I really do love my job but I just get so attached to the kids there and when they are expected to die or get really sick, I cry and feel so sad. Like now, because my favorite little buddy came in not doing well. I have never cried at work or cried in front of people that I don't know very well and I did both of those last Wednesday. I did get to hold his hand, tell him "I love you" and give him a kiss. It helped, but I realized I am not prepared for this. I just keep praying that he won't suffer, but he already is. He was laying limp in the bed and could barely move his fingers.
I really wish I could take his place. He doesn't deserve this at all. He has so much life ahead of him and so much more to do with his life.
Anyway other than that, things are looking okay. Really getting interested in travel nursing and really want to get out of Michigan for a while.
Ok well I am done. I have cried yet again...I hate crying.
Much love to everyone and I apologize so much if I didn't write you back from your lovely response to my last journal entry. You all are still in my heart.
Got back from Chicago and had a great time. Spent most of the time with my old friend, which was so needed right now.
Work: Yeah well you all know how well that is. I really do love my job but I just get so attached to the kids there and when they are expected to die or get really sick, I cry and feel so sad. Like now, because my favorite little buddy came in not doing well. I have never cried at work or cried in front of people that I don't know very well and I did both of those last Wednesday. I did get to hold his hand, tell him "I love you" and give him a kiss. It helped, but I realized I am not prepared for this. I just keep praying that he won't suffer, but he already is. He was laying limp in the bed and could barely move his fingers.
I really wish I could take his place. He doesn't deserve this at all. He has so much life ahead of him and so much more to do with his life.
Anyway other than that, things are looking okay. Really getting interested in travel nursing and really want to get out of Michigan for a while.
Ok well I am done. I have cried yet again...I hate crying.
Much love to everyone and I apologize so much if I didn't write you back from your lovely response to my last journal entry. You all are still in my heart.
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I have been busier than hell..worked a 36 hr long shift today..and in the last 3 shifts i have taken prolly 15 calls..which doesnt sound like much, but its a lot...specially when two of them were hour each way transfers..grr
oh well.
I am kinda pissed cuz I left my home made salsa at my dads
actually Im sure to be free after work this weekend. sat night I might not get out of work til midnight! but sunday the store closes at 10pm so i'm usually out around then. maybe I can come over, we can get loopy on booze and take naughty pictures.