pearlygirl

I am so tired right now I can't even think. When I got out of bed this morning my brain started hurting. And then I had to go write a midterm. I greatly dislike that my insomnia came back. Funny, because I think last year around now I had it as well. I know it is mostly stress related... but this is a difficult thing to fix, as I am the least stressed person I know and I'm busy trying to help and reassure everyone else who is having a worse time than I am. And when I think about it, that is probably what is making me even more stressed. But I can't stop. Apparently I'm in a vicious cycle. Fun stuff. I just want sleep...

In other news, I think I might have to get a job. I know lots of people work whilst in university, but I don't like the thought of it. Even though I tend to have more spare time than most of my friends. I think this is because I slack on my schoolwork. Which means I probably don't have time for a job. Not if I were to actually attempt to do all my readings and essays, etc every week. But, I'm not sure I have a choice. Student loans are not enough and my parents can't help me anymore. Which basically means I have nothing. I might be able to buy my bus pass and pay my utilities every month, but yeah, groceries are out. And I refuse to tell my parents that I don't have enough because that will stress them out more, and they can't do anything about it. Hey look! Another reason I can't sleep!

But yes, I just realized I'm kinda being a downer. And a whiner. And I dislike that. So I shall end this on a... is it actually happy? Maybe strange... note.

"The cannibalistic sock gnomes did it!!!!"