so i'm caught between two extremes right now. i've spent pretty much the last six months in a permanent state of emotional distress. now that i've escaped the situation that made me feel that way in the first place, i don't know how to handle my life. i don't know if i should- A. use this time to heal myself and become a better, healthier person, or B. just go out and fuck myself up as much as i possibly can by being reckless and irresponsible.
i know it may sound sick, but i'm gravitating more towards B, being healthy and balanced and centered just seems way too boring for me.
i know it may sound sick, but i'm gravitating more towards B, being healthy and balanced and centered just seems way too boring for me.
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Dropping into your vices, or total denial, may be the easiest of choices. But, to do it really only leads to shit when your not at that equillibrium. You either crave your vice or wish to be in a different enviroment if you let them (vices) consume you.
Not like I'm really one to judge we all have our follies and mine was blatently anything snortable. But yea, just do what makes you happy. By happy I mean in the long run, by looking at what you're about to do for more then 2 seconds you will see what that is.
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