Updates!!! 
Really there isn't a lot to report. Connor got Hand, Foot, and Mouth while I was in SC, but he's feeling much better now.
Thanksgiving was stressful. I rode up with Kerry to his parents house on the Saturday before. We got there and they seemed absolutely delighted to meet me. (I'm the first girl he's ever brought home.) I was introduced to the neighbors and we sat around talking all night. Everything was going well until Monday. One of the neighbors came over with a bottle of whiskey. Seeing as it was 11:30 am I wasn't really up for any of the hard stuff just yet. Kerry took a couple of shots (so we didn't appear rude) but seeing as I wasn't drinking they decided to just shoot it right out of the bottle. Which was fine until a couple hours later Kerry found out that particular neighbor was getting over the flu. Needless to say, we both ended up with it.
We spent Tuesday and Wednesday in bed fighting off fevers and headaches. His mom got frustrated with us and seemed to think we were faking it, despite the fact that neither of us really get sick that much. She might not know that about me, but she should certainly know it about her own son. Thursday neither of us were feeling much better, so we barricaded ourselves in the bedroom until dinner so that no one else would catch what we had. Apparently that was the last straw for his mom and she chewed him out and didn't eat a bite, despite the fact that we did come out for dinner and to spend time with the family.
Friday we were feeling somewhat better so we went to a friend's house to hang out. I won my first ever game of beer pong! But we paid for it Saturday with more fevers and headaches. (And no it wasn't a hangover because I didn't drink on Friday.)
Sunday we headed on home. We were both relieved because it had been a stressful week and being sick on top of it just didn't help. I also felt I hadn't made the best impression (considering I was completely honest about my entire situation) but I didn't think it was too bad. Well he dropped me off and called when he got home. (There are a lot of idiots on the road during the holidays so I wanted to make sure he got back okay.)
He proceeded to tell me that when he dropped me off his mom called. As soon as he answered the phone the first thing she said was that he needed to dump me immediately because I was using him and I was using James as well. I was extremely hurt. I've never asked him to do a thing for me. He's bought me things from time to time and he picks me up on the weekends plenty, but I never asked him to do those things. I've even offered to pay for gas. And James offered to help me out until I can get on my feet. I never asked him to do that and I certainly never expected it. She said a lot of other things too, but that it the one that got me the most. It hurt even more when I realized that I had even offered to help her with something. Her daughter does pageants and those dresses are hideously expensive. I have a couple of dresses left from way back when and we're about the same size, so I offered to give them to her. I didn't ask or want anything in return. And she has the audacity to say that I'm using her son.
He told her that he was going to see where this goes and that she needs to stop talking about me.
I offered him an out because I hate the fact that there is all this drama just because I'm there. I don't like being the cause of trouble. I didn't want to let him go, but I want him to be happy more. He asked me if I could handle being around his family knowing what they think of me. I told him I could. So he told me that I didn't need to go anywhere and that if they bothered me, he would handle it. That we shouldn't let anything come between us and that as long as we are happy with each other, no one else's opinion matters. So I did the girly thing and burst into tears.
Then my friend Alice called me and told me jokes until I felt better.
I love being with Kerry so much. He's so smart and funny and incredibly sweet. I'm much more relaxed around him, despite all the crap that seems to constantly revolve around us. I don't worry as much. I even sleep better. I'm scared at how quickly all of this developed, but I refuse to over think it. I'm going to enjoy it and take it day by day.
I feel terrible because this year I'm just not in the Christmas spirit. I don't know what happened. I usually love everything about Christmas, but this year I don't even want to put up a tree. I managed to finish all of my Christmas shopping before Thanksgiving which made me feel extremely accomplished, but beyond that I'm just not feeling it.
I think the commercialism of it has just brought me down.
And I'm so ready to shoot a set! My new year's resolution is to have a set in review on this site before the end of 2012. I've been saying I'm going to do it and damn it I'm going to do it. Kerry is so excited about it. He wants to go with me to the shoot. So we had to sit down and have a talk before I would agree to let him come. Luckily he's incredibly understanding so I don't think we're going to have a problem.
Other than that I've been feeling really good. I have great friends, an incredible boyfriend, and a family who supports my decisions no matter what they feel about the subject. I am extremely lucky and I'm realizing this more and more every day. Despite everything life keeps throwing at me, I'm feeling very optimistic. Maybe it's fatalism. Or maybe it's simply the idea of the new beginnings coming for me in the new year. Whatever it is I'm enjoying the feeling.
I only have one picture to post this time, but hopefully I'll make up for it next time.
It's our first picture together. (What you don't know is I had to crop out a beer can 
)
And some stuff that just made me smile....
Love you guys!!
Really there isn't a lot to report. Connor got Hand, Foot, and Mouth while I was in SC, but he's feeling much better now.
Thanksgiving was stressful. I rode up with Kerry to his parents house on the Saturday before. We got there and they seemed absolutely delighted to meet me. (I'm the first girl he's ever brought home.) I was introduced to the neighbors and we sat around talking all night. Everything was going well until Monday. One of the neighbors came over with a bottle of whiskey. Seeing as it was 11:30 am I wasn't really up for any of the hard stuff just yet. Kerry took a couple of shots (so we didn't appear rude) but seeing as I wasn't drinking they decided to just shoot it right out of the bottle. Which was fine until a couple hours later Kerry found out that particular neighbor was getting over the flu. Needless to say, we both ended up with it.
We spent Tuesday and Wednesday in bed fighting off fevers and headaches. His mom got frustrated with us and seemed to think we were faking it, despite the fact that neither of us really get sick that much. She might not know that about me, but she should certainly know it about her own son. Thursday neither of us were feeling much better, so we barricaded ourselves in the bedroom until dinner so that no one else would catch what we had. Apparently that was the last straw for his mom and she chewed him out and didn't eat a bite, despite the fact that we did come out for dinner and to spend time with the family.
Friday we were feeling somewhat better so we went to a friend's house to hang out. I won my first ever game of beer pong!
But we paid for it Saturday with more fevers and headaches. (And no it wasn't a hangover because I didn't drink on Friday.)
Sunday we headed on home. We were both relieved because it had been a stressful week and being sick on top of it just didn't help. I also felt I hadn't made the best impression (considering I was completely honest about my entire situation) but I didn't think it was too bad. Well he dropped me off and called when he got home. (There are a lot of idiots on the road during the holidays so I wanted to make sure he got back okay.)
He proceeded to tell me that when he dropped me off his mom called. As soon as he answered the phone the first thing she said was that he needed to dump me immediately because I was using him and I was using James as well. I was extremely hurt. I've never asked him to do a thing for me. He's bought me things from time to time and he picks me up on the weekends plenty, but I never asked him to do those things. I've even offered to pay for gas. And James offered to help me out until I can get on my feet. I never asked him to do that and I certainly never expected it. She said a lot of other things too, but that it the one that got me the most. It hurt even more when I realized that I had even offered to help her with something. Her daughter does pageants and those dresses are hideously expensive. I have a couple of dresses left from way back when and we're about the same size, so I offered to give them to her. I didn't ask or want anything in return. And she has the audacity to say that I'm using her son.
He told her that he was going to see where this goes and that she needs to stop talking about me.
I offered him an out because I hate the fact that there is all this drama just because I'm there. I don't like being the cause of trouble. I didn't want to let him go, but I want him to be happy more. He asked me if I could handle being around his family knowing what they think of me. I told him I could. So he told me that I didn't need to go anywhere and that if they bothered me, he would handle it. That we shouldn't let anything come between us and that as long as we are happy with each other, no one else's opinion matters. So I did the girly thing and burst into tears.
Then my friend Alice called me and told me jokes until I felt better.
I love being with Kerry so much. He's so smart and funny and incredibly sweet. I'm much more relaxed around him, despite all the crap that seems to constantly revolve around us. I don't worry as much. I even sleep better. I'm scared at how quickly all of this developed, but I refuse to over think it. I'm going to enjoy it and take it day by day.
I feel terrible because this year I'm just not in the Christmas spirit. I don't know what happened. I usually love everything about Christmas, but this year I don't even want to put up a tree. I managed to finish all of my Christmas shopping before Thanksgiving which made me feel extremely accomplished, but beyond that I'm just not feeling it.
I think the commercialism of it has just brought me down.
And I'm so ready to shoot a set! My new year's resolution is to have a set in review on this site before the end of 2012. I've been saying I'm going to do it and damn it I'm going to do it. Kerry is so excited about it. He wants to go with me to the shoot. So we had to sit down and have a talk before I would agree to let him come. Luckily he's incredibly understanding so I don't think we're going to have a problem.
Other than that I've been feeling really good. I have great friends, an incredible boyfriend, and a family who supports my decisions no matter what they feel about the subject. I am extremely lucky and I'm realizing this more and more every day. Despite everything life keeps throwing at me, I'm feeling very optimistic. Maybe it's fatalism. Or maybe it's simply the idea of the new beginnings coming for me in the new year. Whatever it is I'm enjoying the feeling.
I only have one picture to post this time, but hopefully I'll make up for it next time.
It's our first picture together.
(What you don't know is I had to crop out a beer can )
And some stuff that just made me smile....
Love you guys!!
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and yay for your plan to shoot a set for the site! I suggest you to contact a staff photographer, I guess there are many there (*me envious* eheh)... they are very very helpful with new girls!
and yes, if I'd color the tattoo it'd be of dark nuances for sure! I agree with you.
Christmas has gotten out of hand, and it's especailly hard on many who just cannot simply afford to get their loved ones even the smallest of gifts. Times are bad and it reflects on people's emotions.
Hope you fulfill your goal of getting yur set done in 2012. It is a lot of work, with the planning and finding a location, and tog, but I'm sue you'll do well. Good luck.