god i hate being hungover....i hate throwing up straight alcohol.....i hate not being able to eat but being fuckin' hungry. i hate listening to music, but i need thoughs sounds to cover up my own agony. die zombie die! i can't even see out of one eye because it makes me feel better to keep one clsed... the head ache that will not stop, and...
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you know, when i'm really bored and there seems to be nothing good on the world wide web, i often go to google my personal one stop entertainmet generator.
i pick up my handy quick speller dictionary (because anyone who may have seen any of my posts knows i spell about as accurate as the stl bus line) and randomly pick words out to...
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i pick up my handy quick speller dictionary (because anyone who may have seen any of my posts knows i spell about as accurate as the stl bus line) and randomly pick words out to...
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it's a good day for drinkin'. not too hot, not too humid. i think i'll get a ride into town and drink some white wine. i'll stare at the tourists who in turn will stare at me.
doll_:
bwaahahahahaah!!!
totally.
i swear. why must they stare???
totally.
i swear. why must they stare???
as soon as i get a grip and make out a plan everything gets shifted. i guess the only way i'm going to get anywhere is just to brave through the storms again and be poor, poor, poor, again.
i want to be back in pdx and i set a date. i should go anyway. regardless of cash. i've landed on my feet before. i...
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i want to be back in pdx and i set a date. i should go anyway. regardless of cash. i've landed on my feet before. i...
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i've never felt like a whore until i was used for a peice of ass by an ex. i really felt bad. disgusted that someone could set out to do such a thing. now you maybe saying to yourself pussy get over it (which i am now) or you fuckin' lair you loved it (don't get me wrong i'm a great piece O'ass and it...
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munke:
Ebay advertising space on your body?
And yeah yeah... cry me a river, you fellow man-whore you...
used by an ex for sex.
that's one of those things that every guy aspires to have happen at least ONCE in their life... chalk it up to a "learning experience" and go from there.
Uhaul takes pussy in exchange to reduced rates, I hear. Maybe you can pimp the Ex at the local uhaul location for a cheaper uhaul truck?
And yeah yeah... cry me a river, you fellow man-whore you...
used by an ex for sex.
that's one of those things that every guy aspires to have happen at least ONCE in their life... chalk it up to a "learning experience" and go from there.
Uhaul takes pussy in exchange to reduced rates, I hear. Maybe you can pimp the Ex at the local uhaul location for a cheaper uhaul truck?
devil_bitch:
Actualy that would be great. But 1. How much? and 2.If I get bumped I will be back at square one.
mmmm....vanilla pumpkin crepes
mmmm....vanilla pumpkin crepes
welcome to my personal hell. within you will find never ending back curling work and droves of souls making examples of their pain.
i expect you have a strong stomache for the glory in this life is lived short.
i expect you have a strong stomache for the glory in this life is lived short.
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patissier:
looking back at some post maybe i should put the booze down. nah.
munke:
Repeat after me. (Sinatra's Doll stylie)
Whiskey
is
your
friend.
Everything
is
better
with
whiskey.
Booze
makes
the
pain
go
away.
Whiskey
is
your
friend.
Everything
is
better
with
whiskey.
Booze
makes
the
pain
go
away.
have you evere just wanted to make things better? people better .laces better. your life better?
i just feel as if it should happen quicker. i wake up and,"it's solved". what ever problem, it's solved. we have the answer simple, as it is, we have the answer.
i just feel as if it should happen quicker. i wake up and,"it's solved". what ever problem, it's solved. we have the answer simple, as it is, we have the answer.
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munke:
Will do.
The dude who fucks with me, to try and keep his job safe, is on the line, in back.
'course, our line consists of assembling tacos and flinging burgers... NOT the kind of place I thought it'd be.
But it's allllllll good. Just told them tonight that for the next four weeks, i'd be in an intense training program for the new japanese place that's less then 2 miles from my house...
pizza and burgers, driving 19 miles each way... or contemporary japanese cusine (think morimoto, on iron chef... foie grais gone wild, plus sake and sushi bars...) that's 2 miles from my house.
Somehow the $.50 difference in wage (which only covers gas, not my time, for the commute to sling pizzas) doesn't even begin to cover what I'd be missing by working at a place with a REAL line... oh yes... mis en place, you will be mine again!
The dude who fucks with me, to try and keep his job safe, is on the line, in back.
'course, our line consists of assembling tacos and flinging burgers... NOT the kind of place I thought it'd be.
But it's allllllll good. Just told them tonight that for the next four weeks, i'd be in an intense training program for the new japanese place that's less then 2 miles from my house...
pizza and burgers, driving 19 miles each way... or contemporary japanese cusine (think morimoto, on iron chef... foie grais gone wild, plus sake and sushi bars...) that's 2 miles from my house.
Somehow the $.50 difference in wage (which only covers gas, not my time, for the commute to sling pizzas) doesn't even begin to cover what I'd be missing by working at a place with a REAL line... oh yes... mis en place, you will be mine again!
patissier:
i would do the change too. i told the exc. chef yesterday that if we don't start to do more intense desserts and showpeices for the brunches there was no need for me and this is a waste of my talents. not to have an ego but i could be doing more and liking my job or doing shit and having a shitty job we'll see how today goes.
i have this constant feeling of needing to do something more. i am made for something more.
i need to find a new place to live. i want to be back in pdx, but i have no where to go. anywhere but here is nice.
maybe i'l just go to the amusement park. i need some fun. i like fun. fun is fun.
maybe i'l just go to the amusement park. i need some fun. i like fun. fun is fun.
HA! i finally suckered you in...
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patissier:
my boss is such a frigin' tool! it's amazing the paradox to my employees. am sure some of them think i'm such a frigin' tool.
the one good thing about my boss bing such a frigin' tool is that i have a better understanding of how not to be such a frigin' tool. i think.
the one good thing about my boss bing such a frigin' tool is that i have a better understanding of how not to be such a frigin' tool. i think.
munke:
Hey there... welcome welcome...
Tool bosses... <lol> Mine today was actually appreciative of my efforts... weird huh?
I'm not big on MySpace... my fiance uses it to chat with her sisters... but that's about it... I'm strictly an SG guy myself.
Tool bosses... <lol> Mine today was actually appreciative of my efforts... weird huh?
I'm not big on MySpace... my fiance uses it to chat with her sisters... but that's about it... I'm strictly an SG guy myself.
rain has now past by
moist and fragrant the Earth is smooth
i smile to myself
moist and fragrant the Earth is smooth
i smile to myself
patissier:
people often wish they are more this or more that. maybe it just that they wish they had, a more husky voice or a smaller waste line, but there is something. something about you that you like better on someone else or wish you did/didn't have no matter how unmaterialistic or shallow you maybe.
i don't ever wish to change things in my past, however i wish to "get lucky" and chance the outcome of the inpending doom of my conciequences. i admit that i day dream at times about how my life should be perfect. knowing all the while my life is pretty good.
i went to the casino today because after all i have bills to pay, a laywer to feed, and the state of MO just doesn't make enough money in taxes apperantly. i sat at one brillantly flashing instrument of faith and what do you know i have several hundred dollars more than i did before i went in there. not to mention i've been on a bit of a hot streak lately. slots, table games i play it all.
mind you i am in no way complaining, but as the machine kept counting up the credits i couldn't help but think of how nice it would have been to hit the "jackpot". what creditors i would have paid off and the new location (looking to move to Portland). the friend i was with could not stop saying how great it must be to be me. how lucky i always get. and how i'm freakishly lucky because i have some weird sence to know to look down at this very moment to find a four leaf clover shining back at me.
i never realized how "lucky" i am i guess. perhaps we should all evaluate what incredible lives we live.
good luck
i don't ever wish to change things in my past, however i wish to "get lucky" and chance the outcome of the inpending doom of my conciequences. i admit that i day dream at times about how my life should be perfect. knowing all the while my life is pretty good.
i went to the casino today because after all i have bills to pay, a laywer to feed, and the state of MO just doesn't make enough money in taxes apperantly. i sat at one brillantly flashing instrument of faith and what do you know i have several hundred dollars more than i did before i went in there. not to mention i've been on a bit of a hot streak lately. slots, table games i play it all.
mind you i am in no way complaining, but as the machine kept counting up the credits i couldn't help but think of how nice it would have been to hit the "jackpot". what creditors i would have paid off and the new location (looking to move to Portland). the friend i was with could not stop saying how great it must be to be me. how lucky i always get. and how i'm freakishly lucky because i have some weird sence to know to look down at this very moment to find a four leaf clover shining back at me.
i never realized how "lucky" i am i guess. perhaps we should all evaluate what incredible lives we live.
good luck
i wait for the rain
thunder, lighting, wind blows fierce
gray skies calm my nerves
thunder, lighting, wind blows fierce
gray skies calm my nerves
no one knows this who scenario better than i. be over in a bit to bring you lemon lime alkaseltzer gator aide, boxed chicken noodle soup and saltine crackers... its gonna take a few hours for you to even be able to look at these items, but i find them key in my recovery.