Well, I've been wanting to start this for sometime, but just never got around to it until now. I don't really know what to write about, so if anyone has any suggestions/requests for topics let me know. I would at least like to say that I love Suicide Girls and all the wonderful work that has been done over the years.
Also, that I love all these gorgeous women; the tattoos, the piercings, the colored hair, tall and short, skinny and plump; all of them. The amazing-ness of the female form never ceases to amaze and enthrall me. I love everything about them, especially to stare into the beautiful vastness of their eyes. Green are my favorite color, but they all hold such beauty in their infinite intricacy. It doesn't matter whether a woman is skinny or big, young or old, long hair or short or even no hair, they are all beautiful. I only wish I had one to share my life with; to give of myself to her.
I'm afraid though that none of these gorgeous creatures will ever want to share their beauty with me. I used to be confident that I am a good man; kind, gentle, loving, caring, but now I'm not sure. I feel that I am, but maybe my loneliness has now made me bitter and jaded. I have a great sense of humor and love to joke and laugh; even at myself sometimes. I'm also very smart, but feel like it's mostly useless knowledge. It comes in handy occasionally. I've always had a bit of a temper, but I abhor being violent towards others; mostly just a bunch of steam released from its kettle. My worst nightmares are those where I am violent, and when I had a wife and dreamed of violence towards her I would wake up crying. So, if I still am this good man, are my looks the reason women don't want to be with me. I know I'm fat, but if that shouldn't matter for a woman, then shouldn't the same standard be upheld for men. I'm also hairy, as men should be and as mammals are, but today's standards often make hair on a persons body, both men and women, something undesirable. Don't get me wrong, a freshly shaven pair of legs on a woman feels divine, but you shouldn't feel ashamed if you don't shave for a while. I myself am often neglectful of shaving my face, but when I do it does feel nice. I am also prematurely balding; being only 33 and looking sometimes like I'm in my late 40's, is sometimes unnerving, because I feel women think I'm too old for them when I'm the same age.
I just don't know what to do.
I want nothing more than to be in a loving relationship with a gorgeous woman that accepts me for who I am; an overweight, hairy, balding man with complex emotions that will love her unconditionally. I would love a Suicide Girl to be that woman.
I think I should end this here. Hope, if anyone reads this, they'll like it. Again, if anyone has topic ideas, I'm open to them.
