I wasn't expecting to write a blog tonight. I've just been forced to though really.
The meal with the mother was alright. Free food is free food, and an evening with the mother is an evening with the mother.
She seemed to have a mental list of things she had to get off her chest. I sat there and nodded politely at everything without really paying much attention.
Then the wife just called. She wanted to talk about money and splitting stuff. It's 10pm, my back hurts (trapped nerve methinks) and I should really be asleep, the last thing I care about right now is separation stuff.
Eurgh, what started off as a pleasant enough, chatty and matey conversation was soon hijacked into the "Where did it all go wrong?" type of call. She's trying to make me answerable to things I've been avoiding for a while which were partly responsible for our break up. I don't see the point in even thinking about these things though because what's done is done. Maybe she has a point and I'm being childish and should really become answerable for some actions. But what's the point? They're issues that don't affect me any more. The only reason I'd address the issues was to help her get closure on the whole thing. But that's not my job now. I'm a single male and she's currently only my wife in a legal sense. I don't owe her anything.
That sounds so harsh. It's probably the harshest I'm ever going to be. I'm far too loyal to say these types of things normally. Maybe I'm turning a corner. Maybe I was sat at this desk with a keyboard in front of me when the conversation ended. And maybe I'll regret typing this in the morning.
All I know is that this is good for me to see and look back on. So that I can see how I'm feeling. It's the first time I've been angry about the whole break up. I've been so apathetic really. I'm surprising myself.
On the flipside, I bought SSS's (www.myspace.com/shortsharpshockuk) album in Zavvi today. It was either their album or Metallica's new album.
I bought St. Anger on the day it came out. I'm going to have to hear more of Death Magnetic before deciding on that one!
I also bought jogging pants. I'm actually going to start wrestling training this weekend. I can't wait.
The meal with the mother was alright. Free food is free food, and an evening with the mother is an evening with the mother.
She seemed to have a mental list of things she had to get off her chest. I sat there and nodded politely at everything without really paying much attention.
Then the wife just called. She wanted to talk about money and splitting stuff. It's 10pm, my back hurts (trapped nerve methinks) and I should really be asleep, the last thing I care about right now is separation stuff.
Eurgh, what started off as a pleasant enough, chatty and matey conversation was soon hijacked into the "Where did it all go wrong?" type of call. She's trying to make me answerable to things I've been avoiding for a while which were partly responsible for our break up. I don't see the point in even thinking about these things though because what's done is done. Maybe she has a point and I'm being childish and should really become answerable for some actions. But what's the point? They're issues that don't affect me any more. The only reason I'd address the issues was to help her get closure on the whole thing. But that's not my job now. I'm a single male and she's currently only my wife in a legal sense. I don't owe her anything.
That sounds so harsh. It's probably the harshest I'm ever going to be. I'm far too loyal to say these types of things normally. Maybe I'm turning a corner. Maybe I was sat at this desk with a keyboard in front of me when the conversation ended. And maybe I'll regret typing this in the morning.
All I know is that this is good for me to see and look back on. So that I can see how I'm feeling. It's the first time I've been angry about the whole break up. I've been so apathetic really. I'm surprising myself.
On the flipside, I bought SSS's (www.myspace.com/shortsharpshockuk) album in Zavvi today. It was either their album or Metallica's new album.
I bought St. Anger on the day it came out. I'm going to have to hear more of Death Magnetic before deciding on that one!
I also bought jogging pants. I'm actually going to start wrestling training this weekend. I can't wait.
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secretary:
I do! But now you can see me in all my awful glory on Myspaz. Uggh. Mostly drunk. 
secretary:
Thanks. It's really old artwork now, but oh well... I'll have to stick a photo of the gown I'm making on there too, although I've grown to hate it's fiddly guts. How is life oop nort'?
It's really old artwork now, but oh well... I'll have to stick a photo of the gown I'm making on there too, although I've grown to hate it's fiddly guts. How is life oop nort'?