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I gotta say, getting old is getting me down. Yeah, I know, I'm not THAT old, but it's happening. Love and adventure have become distant dreams of my youth. I ought not complain much though. Those years were good, blessed with loves and adventures to entertain my memories for years to come. But now, the mundane is my master. I live a monastic...
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abjabber:
You'll be missed frown
devith5044:
I think mine runs out next month.
I am probably going to take the same path.

all my best
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It was bound to happen sooner or later...

...that disturbing moment when looking at a set, transfixed on a model who reminds me of a lover from my memories. And then, a little math whispers in my ear, "She could be your daughter."

yikes
dwam:
Thanks for your love on my set ! kiss
But indeed the title is wrong - I guess the photographer kinda messed it up a bit when he submitted the set.
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presently


I want to create a future

that isn't


so fucking
dystopian



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devilins:
thank for comm , is not its just black tree smile
bettybruises:
This.

Is why I'm leaving Southern California.

(c;

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you must watch


MUST, i say!!








(the effect is sooo much better on a bigger screen and with decent speakers ....soooo, just watch the whole thing, ok, yah?)
devilins:
wow so great
abjabber:
Nice! biggrin
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so, this week had me thinking
ha! ...a shocker

thinking a bit about my last post

when i wrote it I had other thoughts in mind than the ones that actually manifested through the interface of phalangeal articulation upon my keyboard


so, i felt a bit disingenuous
what with the final product not exactly resembling anything all that personal or revealing

or so i thought...
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abjabber:
Thanks for the compliment biggrin I'm glad I inspired your creativity. Someday I've got to sample some cider. I can always barter some art prints for a bottle wink
abjabber:
Good luck with the cider pub, let me know if you need any art done for it. I usually take about a week or two to complete a project, depending on its complexity. wink Take care.
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Something I really like about rambling here, is that I can express ideas and parts of myself that would otherwise probably shock, scare or confuse my stock facebook acquaintance. I don't mean to belittle them, mind you (nor elevate you, for that matter). It's just an observation. Maybe I'm more comfortable with disclosure in these particular confines. Certainly I am in good...
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bettybruises:
I feel the same way about this place.
Writing on here just feels easier when it comes to certain things.

And yeah, there is so much ugliness happening in the world, I find myself wondering if it's always been happening and I'm just now noticing, or if our collective conscious is having a melt down somehow. blackeyed

Enjoy yourself, and perhaps soon, I will be up in your neck of the woods and more present than I was when you saw me last and able to sit and have a beer or whiskey with you smile
bettybruises:
A cider sounds delightful!!

As far as those demons go, I am breathing and immersing myself in art and music, both of which have always been soul healing. That and lots of quiet reflective time smile
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hello all you beautiful souls in SG land


it's time again to wander inside my mind




today is a likable day



if for no other reason than that's what I feel




the daylight fills this room
and wood from blessed trees warms its soul
and mine

i give thanks to those trees
and others
for their fruit and their fire
and eventually their...
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lumo:
Good to see you are in a positive frame of mind <3
cudnovati:
good stuff.
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hmmm, it's update time, i s'pose.

It's past 2 pm and I'm still lingering in bed. I have virtually no work lined up this week, which is a blessing of sorts in that I get some much needed time to relax, but the loss of income always makes me a little nervous. Still, it's better to embrace the blessing than...
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bettybruises:
<3 Thank you for that.

And getting away to have coffee/tea with you last weekend helped (even if I was a still really rattled and a little out of it). And of course it was just nice being able to sit and chat for a bit smile
flogging_mayra:
Actually I've always been able to lucid dream and manipulate everything while i'm dreaming but my body knows it's not being produced in real life so I actually get even more anxious frown
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ugh, that old post is getting tattered and dusty

...time for a new one


let's see...

it's winter, or damn near close enough

I actually read somewhere that the concept of seasons has gone through a variety of phases in nearly every culture. Around here, there's pretty much rainy and not-rainy (or at least that's my current paradigm ...come spring things...
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nene:
You are so right -- it could be much worse. One thing I've learned over the years -- airing my little vents in public does make them seem much smaller.

I have always loved this time of year. The cold and the dark. A time for introspection or as you say, reacquainting oneself with their inner hearth.

There is nothing dreary about that.

smile
lilli:
I did actually arm myself with rose quartz (to soothe my heart) and lapis (for psychic protection) the next time I went to work... but the lil dude was absent that day! Haha.

Enjoy your rainy solitude and self-reacquaintance. Blessings to you. ♥
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Here I am again, neglectful of my duty to keep all you hungry readers satiated with regular updates about my oh-so-intriguing life.

I'll endeavor to dress up the mundane a bit in order to make it seem a bit more worthwhile.

Ahh, well now, last time I was here I had rambled on a bit about a break-up and my radical excursions into ancient...
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lumo:
Hey! I missed you b-day the other day *massive hug* Hope it was epic love! As for weird body conditioning, I still bruise sometimes cos since forever I bruise like a peach but its getting better, hopefully eventually I will be as lucky as you!
bettybruises:
haha right?
i try to not promote the hate either, but i died laughing at that wink