paolodesade

Pretty Hate Machine, on repeat, all night, = interesting dreams


So, I haven't been feeling all that great about myself lately. Work has been very unsatisfying, the manager at the store is not pleasent(let alone competent). Half of her sales staff are not fun to be around(I'm trying to be nice about how I phrase it). I used to love my job, and all the people whom I worked with, It's been a couple of years now since I last felt that way.

Since having kids, I have lost touch with all my old friends (most of them are single). And I haven't had time or opportunity to make new friends. I have almost nothing in common with the people I work with, even less in common with my neighbors, and I don't have a hang-out, because I don't have time to hang-out.

So I joined this site hoping to find people with common interests/beliefs and hopefully make some friends. I have met a few cool people here, so that is nice. But I find that, for the most part, the alcohol-fueled get-togethers are not real conducive to actually getting to know people. And, frankly, I usually feel a little out of place at some of these gatherings. Most of the members are so young that I don't have much in common with them either.

I'm going to go run now, I'll try to finish this thought when I get back.

9:22
Nice long run, got the kids off to school, and I'm feeling a bit better.

But I know it won't last very long. I'm not sure if this is just my cyclic depression come back for yet anouther round, or if it's some sort of mid-life thing. Which is not something to take lightly. Many lifes are destroyed by people not taking mid-life crises seriously. Unfortunatly I don't have time or money for counseling to find out what is going on, which is exactly what I would suggest to anyone telling me this same thing.

Anyway, time to get ready for work...

So, tell me, how do you feel about where you are in your life. What do you think you are doing or going to do about it. And do you feel like you have a place that you fit in.