pangaea

Damnation

Every day is a constant blur,
Seemingly repetitive, there's no cure.
That when loneliness strikes, there's a pain,
Knowing that it will happen, all over again.
My feelings were hidden, when they were bearable,
Yet pain has made my heart numb.
That when I thought my feelings were shareable,
I feel I would say something dumb.
Clouding my emotions with humor, to show no pain.
Yet inside me is anger, which is making me insane.
Then I think of how people see me, I feel like a fool.
That immaturity is shown, which is an annoying tool.
Passing through an eternity of grieving.
Still devoid of any meaning.
Useless to enquire upon,
The fate that I shall suffer on.
Silence will start to be my remedy,
Wishing that the emptiness in my soul would be filled.
Hoping that quiet sorrow stops it's piercing melody.
And that my limited joy will never be spilled.
I need someone to live for.
I need something to die for.
I don't want to play the painful part,
Of a lonely man with a broken heart.
I need to make a change,
Like a river must flow.
I need to rearrange,
It's time to let myself go.
I'm damned to this timeless void without love.
And I feel like a crow rejected by a dove.
Oh, why am I without love.
Save me please, someone from the heavens above.