pandemonium

I think there comes a time in every person's life where they try and settle certain things in their mind. Some are easier than others, but generally all need to be dealt with eventually: who we think we are, what we think our place is, where it is we stand in relation to certain things... that sort of thing.

One thing I have been struggling...
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Goddamnit, goddamnit, goddamnit.
Useless, useless, useless life.

Everyone, honestly now:
What good is your own life when you can't even live it for yourself?

In Stranger in a Strange Land, Robert Heinlein stated that love was the condition whereby another person's happiness is essential to your own. That presents a problem. Any friend that is a member of or near my Inner Circle immediately...
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So as far as I'm concerned, now it's officially spring. I consecrated it yesterday when I fell asleep on top of a cliff that I go to alot at Ramapo. I fell asleep in front of the NYC skyline on the top of a cliff. Oh god was it amazing.

Well, it was neccessary, though. I was supposed to go out with my friend Jackie...
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Finally saw Kill Bill Vol. 2 tonight. Caught the late show at Palisades with chichicat. Amazing film. I loved it. Cherry cola is the bane of my existence.

Happy 420 day and all of that nonsense. It was Hitler's birthday, too, in case you didn't know. Hope you kept that in mind while you were "celebrating"

On a Deutsche-related note, I am interested in...
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Woohoo! Finally, finally, finally! It's fucking warm out and NICE! It was a little muggy but the breeze kept it nice and chill all day today.

Had work at four, but at five we suddenly had a brownout. We kicked all the customers out of the store because the phones and computers died, and then shortly after, a few employees smelled something that seemed like...
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Come with me into the trees
We'll lay on the grass
And let the hours pass
Take my hand, come back to the land
Let's get away just for one day

Let me see you stripped down to the bone
Let me see you stripped down to the bone

Metropolis has nothing on this
I'm breathing in fumes I taste when we kiss
Take my...
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How do you know when you've hit rock bottom?

Is it the clammy, sticky mess welling up in the coffee filter of your soul?

The dried blood crusting up behind your eyes?

Or maybe it's the dreary enema of waking existence where you don't move through life so much as stand still and let it pass through you, taking and leaving what it will; where...
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Day two of Culture Shock is a wrap

There is absolutely nothing more to say


have you ever loved someone so much that you wanted to kill them? ...me either
- Maynard James Keenan

First day of Culture Shock (a.k.a. Vulture Cock... ) is now under the belt. It was pretty cool. Some good stuff. Left after the Bouncing Souls played. The Souls' mosh pit was a lot of fun, I lost one of my shoes but I was able to get it back quickly enough.

And now my initial observation of Suny Purchase:

It seems like a nice...
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Culture Shock after work tomorrow! And even if all of hell conspires against me, I'll be there. I'm pandemonium after all, aren't I? I am all of hell!

Bouncing Souls, yeah!

Found another bone behind my sculpture studio. I love behind my sculpture studio. It's the coolest place ever.

Iggy, hopefully I'll see you tomorrow.

...and "denim expert" is still cracking me up

Hahahaha....
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It's always important to set goals for yourself, so here's a list of goals I've set for myself to be completed by the end of this summer:

- re-shoot "Mr. Smith Goes to Washington," starring Little Lord Fauntleroy, datewitha38's African Fat-Tailed Gecko, as Mr. Smith

- reinact the Civil War battle of the Monitor vs. the Merrimack with wiffle balls... if it is successful,...
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~E.E. Cummings


Autonomous machete for hands
Warden and judge hide behind masks
Wet raindrop lull
Small rationing
Exhumed the rhetoric of
Break the weak in single file
Sanction this outbreak- a virus conspires
Push becomes shove, days become months
And I seem to have forgotten the warmth of the sun

Feeding frenzy, it's contagious
Have trigger,...
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