painless_suicide

man its been a while since i last wrote in here...sad times...
well i have gottten better from being sick, got my new apartment (i will post pics once i have the time heh) aaaand..tried to kill myself a couple times..yay for me

having friends = bullshit.

plain and simple. there is no use to it..all there is, is drama and i end up getting hurt so fucking bad >_< gah, i hate it.

and fucking Valentines Day is coming up...woo hoo i hate V-day. it always makes me really sad...i wish i had a person that really cared for me enough to do something very special for me for V-day...make me feel like they care about me...
like, if someone bought me a dozen roses, i would be happy for weeks..i love roses...so pretty heh heh...bleh fuck..i hate talking all sappy and shit...im going to bed...