So Halloween just finished and it’s been a wild weekend. I spent my Halloween weekend with @phianixx and @heatherrann and we all had plans to suprise each other with our costumes!
So on Saturday is when we would unveil our outfits to each other. On Friday however I had the sad news that my granny had passed away, she died in her late 90s and she passed form covid.
As I was at friends I kind of locked up the emotion and grief of her passing untill I got home. However the universe works in unexplainable ways. My outfit for Halloween was to be from the My chemical romance song Helena. If you’re not aware this song is written by the lead singer about the passing of his grandma, Helena. The irony. My grandma who passed Friday was...is? I’m not sure on the tense now. My grandmas name was Helena.
I sat Friday night thinking of the irony my months long planned costume was now in, but as our costumers were a suprise I couldn’t share this with anyone.
I phoned my mum, it was her mum who passed. I told her the irony of my costume amongst other things we spoke about. My mum laughed and said my granny would have loved it, she was very much a diva and things were about her and I think that a tribute to Helena on the night of the full moon would have made her smile.
So fast forward to now, I’m home and I won’t lie I’m hungover and I can’t help but think how weird and tricky grief is. It’s something I can’t really explain the feeling off, it’s mixed but I have support of friends and family and will figure it out.
Sorry this is more of a different tone to my usual blogs, but it felt like the most appropriate place to talk about this, I felt like I could open up here.
I hope you all had a happy Halloween and stay safe xo
