Today is my second day as being a Suicide Girl Hopeful, this as really been exciting journey even to get to this point!
I started following Suicide Girls when I was 16/17 as an inspiration for seeing heavily tattooed girls. I at the point never thought I'd ever be apart of the community, though I wanted to, I just thought I wasn't the right fit. I'm a slightly more curvy girl and thought that it would never be something I'd be able to.
When Instagram first came out I started seeing the SG girls joining and started following them, I turned 18 and got my first tattoo and a few months later I became a cam girl whilst studying at University (I'll do another blog post about this further down the line).
Camming boosted my self esteem, as it does many girls, I love it and still do it today with no sign of stopping! One day I took the plunge and sent my application off, I put my best selfies on there and expected to hear a no. I kept this quiet as I had thought I would be rejected so kept it a secret.I had been talking with friend and fellow camgirl @ashleigh_grey when she told me she applied to be an SG and had received an email from @andrealaz for a photoshoot. I was so excited for her and over the moon for her, I took this that I wouldn't be on, gutted but I continued.
The next day I wake up with the same email from Andrea asking if I was interested in shooting my first set with her. Her work is amazing. Ash had already said yes but it took me a couple of days to think if I could really do a photoshoot with look good, especially after admiring the work of many SG's over the years! I took the step and booked my first photoshoot!
The build up to the shoot, I was really nervous, not for the actual shoot but for putting the photos on the site, debating if they'd be accepted. I'm not a large girl, but I'm not small either and don't really fall into either category. I worked out and made sure I ate right up to the shoot. Made sure my hair was done and I was ready.
I'll do a post on going through my first photoshoot another time,
I have since uploaded this first shoot to the site and have been made a hopeful, I can't believe it, It's so exciting words can't describe. Now for you all to see my first shoot! It will be out in 5 months time shoot by @andrealaz , I'm nervous to see the reaction but also excited that my first set will be in Suicide Girls!.
If only 16 year old could have known I'd be a model on the site!!
Until the next,
Paigeexo
