paige85

Finally decided to change my name from jamiesgirl - as it has become quite apparent that i am not jamiesgirl any longer (at least not the only one) despite his efforts to justify having the best of both worlds and make it sound like he loves me more.

Bring on the single life!! such an odd feeling really, sometimes i just want to cry and others i feel so excited and at ease just to be free to do what the fuck i want! tho i do believe there are still way more days that i want to cry!

Why do males have to be so easily tempted by the greener grass on the other side of the fence - do they ever realise once they get there its exactly the same?

I probably shouldnt being saying these things as nothing is final yet, although he has moved out and i know he has been texting and talking to someone else (of which he had lots of photos which to me suggests there is alot more to it than friendship), maybe im just being negative? but i have been put through this so many times! and in only two years, i dont know if i could even cope with this for the rest of my life nevermind enjoy it but for some reason i still love him and want him to want me. Maybe it is just because i like to feel needed. But i need to draw the line between being in love and being a doormat!

enough about all that depressing shit, my daughter has finally mastered crawling on her hands and knees! she has been doing a 'commando' crawl for a few weeks but now she can get from end of the house to the other so quick! and she can pull herself up on the furniture! she's growing up so fast and she's so cute, i wish i could put pictures up to show everyone how gorgeous she is but i seem to have issues gettn the pics small enough.

hope everyone else is having a better easter holiday than i am!!

btw: the new sg for yesterday (Tiara) is so gorgeous! she is now one of my favourites

Good Night!!
xxx ooo xxx