I have this tendency to not sleep as much as I should. The resultant outcome of this is that I never have enough energy to put into the things I want to accomplish every day, because I only get 1 or 2 hours of quality sleep in any given night. It shows in my performance at work. It shows in my interpersonal relationships. It vexes me. I am terribly vexed.
My motor of my mind is constantly running, thinking, calculating, solving, inquiring, planning, wandering, brooding, questioning, pouring over every possible outcome of every possible scenario my mind throws at itself. I can lay in bed with my eyes closed for hours, while thoughts and images of life flash in my brain, never sleeping for an instant. I can't turn it off, or at least I don't know how to turn it off.
Am I troubled? Do I need to seek professional help? Are there perscription drugs to control this? Would sleep actually make me a more productive member of society? How many others have this same problem?
My motor of my mind is constantly running, thinking, calculating, solving, inquiring, planning, wandering, brooding, questioning, pouring over every possible outcome of every possible scenario my mind throws at itself. I can lay in bed with my eyes closed for hours, while thoughts and images of life flash in my brain, never sleeping for an instant. I can't turn it off, or at least I don't know how to turn it off.
Am I troubled? Do I need to seek professional help? Are there perscription drugs to control this? Would sleep actually make me a more productive member of society? How many others have this same problem?
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All jokes aside, i completely understand what your going through. I'm trying to deal with the sudden end of a four year relationship. At night all my mind wants to do is search for hidden meanings in every word he said, to find the emaning as to why this has happened. I toss and turn critisising everything I had done and trying to pin prick where it went wrong. On other nights my mind lay in a mass of webs of thoughts struggling to get my attention. Like; Do i have enough rent money this week, How much will I get paid tomorrow, Did i put the dishwasher on, Is the cat inside, If i move that leg chair out slightly it will look paralel, Wonder what my dad is up to this weekend, What should i write next in my script, When will i finish that fucking thing...
ok.. I think you understand... Sleeping tablets... Thats all i can do these days. Or get really mind numbingly drunk (literally) but that isn't always good. I'm not sure if you know or not, but the mind and the power of speech actually controls your bodily functions. So maybe try telling yourself your really tired and force yourself to yawn. If your talking on MSN or on teh phone tell the person your on the phone to how tired you are. Might help. I just drink myself stupid most nights and i have a full time job.
Hope some of this helps... at least you know your not alone.