(March1st : Live another life day)
Name: Sally Field
Location: The Rockwell Coffee Shop, Chicago
Music: Silent All these years- Tori Amos
Most of you know that ive had it pretty bad since moving to Chicago. First with the accident and loosing Alex, then with having to go through with the birth of baby Joe on my own.
But im still here, still trying to make this city my home.
I got to work early today so i could do this entry on my laptop (one of the few things Alex left me with) as the apartment has no internet connection. The shop owners dont mind me using the shop connection, its just taken out of my wages.
Today the wind blowing along the streets seems to be cutting through my clothes, chilling not just my body, but my heart.
I had a terrible thought last night. That i wish baby Joe had been born a girl. I love him with all my heart. But ive always wanted a girl, a little Josephine. Am i a terrible parent.
Ive just looked at the clock and realised what the time is. She will be outside in a minute.
I think ive mentioned her before. Every day at this time she stops at the bus stop outside. I can see her there, her long red hair cascading down her back. No matter how cold or windy or snowy it is outside, it never seems to effect her, never seems to move a hair on her head.
Ive never really been attracted to other women but.... i think ive got a crush on her. I try and be here every day when she gets here. Yesterday i think she spotted me watching her. She turned around and looked in the window at me. I think i blushed and ran into the kitchens
My life is so sad...trapped in a cold city thats not my own. Only ever thinking about a child i never expected and a women i dont even know. A women ive never even meet.
I had better get back to work.
OMG.......the bus stop women. She just came into the shop.
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UPDATE.
guess who has a date tonight?
And.............her name is JOSEPHINE.
Name: Sally Field
Location: The Rockwell Coffee Shop, Chicago
Music: Silent All these years- Tori Amos
Most of you know that ive had it pretty bad since moving to Chicago. First with the accident and loosing Alex, then with having to go through with the birth of baby Joe on my own.
But im still here, still trying to make this city my home.
I got to work early today so i could do this entry on my laptop (one of the few things Alex left me with) as the apartment has no internet connection. The shop owners dont mind me using the shop connection, its just taken out of my wages.
Today the wind blowing along the streets seems to be cutting through my clothes, chilling not just my body, but my heart.
I had a terrible thought last night. That i wish baby Joe had been born a girl. I love him with all my heart. But ive always wanted a girl, a little Josephine. Am i a terrible parent.
Ive just looked at the clock and realised what the time is. She will be outside in a minute.
I think ive mentioned her before. Every day at this time she stops at the bus stop outside. I can see her there, her long red hair cascading down her back. No matter how cold or windy or snowy it is outside, it never seems to effect her, never seems to move a hair on her head.
Ive never really been attracted to other women but.... i think ive got a crush on her. I try and be here every day when she gets here. Yesterday i think she spotted me watching her. She turned around and looked in the window at me. I think i blushed and ran into the kitchens
My life is so sad...trapped in a cold city thats not my own. Only ever thinking about a child i never expected and a women i dont even know. A women ive never even meet.
I had better get back to work.
OMG.......the bus stop women. She just came into the shop.
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UPDATE.
guess who has a date tonight?
And.............her name is JOSEPHINE.
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More importantly can you still drink?