im sad. really sad. and i dont know why...mostly.
i feel ugly. and useless. and used. and cheap. and dispensible. and pointless. and hatefull. and spitefull. and overlooked. and oversexed. and crazy.
sometimes i think i overanalyze. but i dont care. it just gives me a better edge.
and pieces of me feel like quitting. i feel shittier now than ever. Brittany says i used to be smart, and creative, and confident, and know what i wanted, and do well in school...and now im just a crazy up and down girl. i dont know what that means, but i know she's right.
i got sad when i found out lauren hung out with Sara and Alia(sp?) . just because...i guess he hasnt ever asked me to meet them. there must be a reason, right?sally thinks maybe im just being fucked over again. woudn't that be lovely?
i have nothing to look forward to. nothing that i've created. i wanted to go out and dye my hair and cut it off and buy new clothes, just because i wanted to change something about me. i think i hate myself.
i sort of want to die.
i feel ugly. and useless. and used. and cheap. and dispensible. and pointless. and hatefull. and spitefull. and overlooked. and oversexed. and crazy.
sometimes i think i overanalyze. but i dont care. it just gives me a better edge.
and pieces of me feel like quitting. i feel shittier now than ever. Brittany says i used to be smart, and creative, and confident, and know what i wanted, and do well in school...and now im just a crazy up and down girl. i dont know what that means, but i know she's right.
i got sad when i found out lauren hung out with Sara and Alia(sp?) . just because...i guess he hasnt ever asked me to meet them. there must be a reason, right?sally thinks maybe im just being fucked over again. woudn't that be lovely?
i have nothing to look forward to. nothing that i've created. i wanted to go out and dye my hair and cut it off and buy new clothes, just because i wanted to change something about me. i think i hate myself.
i sort of want to die.