dear friends,
i love you all a lot. you all have different qualities i love about you. its funny cuz, at one point, i just wanted to see what it would be like to go missing for a bit, but in all of that thinking, it turns out, a bit isn't long enough and, i...well, nevermind.
its cold here, and lonely. and im tired of being a badass. and the strong one. and the funny one. and the *cute*(and by cute you mean in a little sister sort of way) one. its tiring.
and i know you all care a lot. but we've drifted lately, all of us. we work, and have school, and many of you have loves to tend to, and i understand that. i never took it too personally.
i miss people too much. i long for people too much. all these un-real people. or, barely-real. mike and kelly and logan and brian and jess and jud and daniel and suz and tad and lyndsey and clintt and jenn and all of you people who've made life a little more real, painful and beautiful.
our children are not our children, but the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.
i loved you.
i love you all a lot. you all have different qualities i love about you. its funny cuz, at one point, i just wanted to see what it would be like to go missing for a bit, but in all of that thinking, it turns out, a bit isn't long enough and, i...well, nevermind.
its cold here, and lonely. and im tired of being a badass. and the strong one. and the funny one. and the *cute*(and by cute you mean in a little sister sort of way) one. its tiring.
and i know you all care a lot. but we've drifted lately, all of us. we work, and have school, and many of you have loves to tend to, and i understand that. i never took it too personally.
i miss people too much. i long for people too much. all these un-real people. or, barely-real. mike and kelly and logan and brian and jess and jud and daniel and suz and tad and lyndsey and clintt and jenn and all of you people who've made life a little more real, painful and beautiful.
our children are not our children, but the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.
i loved you.
just wanted to stop by and tell you that i was so incredibly happy to see you and lauren at the party on saturday. sorry that i couldn't have stayed longer. you girls rock my socks to pieces. and that's no lie. i hope that we can hang out more often.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I definitely know what it's like to want to disappear for a while. And thanks to one of the books mentioned in my favorites, (you'll notice the title immediately) I know exactly how to do it whenever I want. And have.
Wel, I hope you don't disappear for too long, because hanging out with you was really cool. Hopefully I'll see you around.