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I AM SO PISSED OFF!!!!!!!! areioaglnewov[hawlfv!


WHY CANT I HAVE A NORMAL SEX LIFE?!?!!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?~!~!?!?SGDsfdsfd

SO HERES WHAT HAPPENS.: I MEET BOY. BOY SEEMS COOL. I FUCK BOY. BOY'S GIRLFRIEND COMES IN THE ROOM THIS MORNING AND SCREAMS AT ME TO LEAVE.




I HATE MY LIFE.



THIS JUST IN: he just called me. says, she's his, 'crazy ex, who's confused' or something like that, and wants...
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if i could will myself to get up off this chair, i could go write. but instead im eating Scoooperman icecream (which, just made my spit neon green, its hot, i promise) and listening to CatPower



..whats going on at Bernies this weekend?

i dont know if its him that makes me sad, or the idea behind him that bothers me. like, i hear about him, or see his name sign online, and get sad, and feel stupid. and i...want to belive i DID something to make him go away, that it wasn't just WHO i am...

i wonder if i've ever made anyone cry like this...

i think i've found myself in this very stagnant place. so much so that, im O.K with listening to 'the Get up Kids'...


the boy i love(ed) just signed online. and i cant talk to him. beause he hates me. not that i i make it a habbit to love ppl who hate me...i helped him i think.

i am covered in chocolate sauce, whipped cream and beer...




...i blame alisa but. she's amazing. so i guess i'll let it slide.


more later. sleep now. its 5 am. damnit.

sometimes ppl just say, 'yr pretty' to me. and then i worry that drug problems have gotten out of hand.



...i had band practice tonite. OMG . we play the Newport in ONE MONTH...and Bernies a week later...GOD.


so. yes. life is grand.
sort of.

im back. damnit. at least i have a date for the burlesque show.




actually, life isn't too bad.
more later. look at my new hair and nose. its uploaded in my pics section.


wut wut.

catagory a)
luiz
brian
dan
mike
toby

catagory b)
ari
brad
ben
luiz
brian
logan
dan
mike
toby
josh
...shit...now im forgetting again



this is for the best you guys. really.

its funny the way people re-enter one's life. its like some gigantic revolving door some people get stuck in for longer periods of time than others.


dan emailed me. he should call me.
joe didn't call.
the week has ended and clint and i didn't go to hounddogs.(he lied i guess)

im poor
whatever, im going to colorado in a few days, and its one...
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im sorry. i realized that my previous comment may have scared some of you. i cant imagine i REALLY care but...sigh* i could try harder next time.


i had sushi today too.
and toby left his pants here
i want to talk to logan/brian
5 more days til' colorado
i want candy
im bored.

viva los luchadores!

well hello.


im recouperating quite nicely thank you.



so, that first boy Toby passed out on my kitchen floor, so, i had to fuck a boy named Mike. he was fun. actually, 4 or 5 times. i learned something new!!



did you know 'Plan B' costs 80$??? sex is expensive.

i dont know who i am anymore.


fuck.

well, now its 4. note the changes ladies and gents


...lauren's b-day tonite. ewnt to bernies, got trashed, hung out w/leah,ryan,sally,laruen, and as i was leaving , some dude in my way, i was like, 'who are you'?
hey says' im toby'
iml ike, 'wanna go to a party'
he's like sure
i bring him home
i fuck him
now im online, and he's watching...
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