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So I'm single again. It was my decision, but it still feels pretty crappy. It's so frustrating putting so much time and work into something just to realize that it doesn't matter how much time and work you put into it because of underlying problems that just don't go away. At some point it seems as if being in a relationship shouldn't be quite so much work, though... or at least not quite so hard. I don't know if maybe at a different time things could've (or could) work, but I kind of like to think so. Anyway, I know it's pretty natural to feel multiple things at the same time, but it's real confusing too. Obviously, I'm freed up to spend time with whomever I choose, but at present, sex isn't much of a substitute for intimacy. Feel free to flip me shit about being a sap.

On the better side of things, I just got back from NYC and have now looked at the apartment I'm moving into and have a lead on a studio. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried about money, but I think I should be able to find art handling work. Also had a good time looking at some art, the Daniel Richter show at Zwirner Gallery was my favorite.

On a similar note, I'm currently on an install crew here in Boston and am making a bunch of cash, but no art. Kinda sucky, but I couldn't really turn down the money with a move coming up. That's looking to be at the end of June if you were curious.

I was also hit by a car for the third time this past Friday on my way to work at a bar in Union Sq. I'm okay as is my bike, but I put a big dent in the guy's car. He was real nice and actually called the next day to make sure I was alright (he's a physician so that may explain the bedside manner). The downside, of course, is that I may have to pay for the damages, it was my first real day at the bar and they're undoubtedly pissed, and I'm real fucking sore.

Graduation is in about 3 weeks, that oughta be alright.

So, things are bad, things are good, things are in between.