outrightmd

i talked to the girl last night. she wrote me a text message asking how things were going, said she had been thinking about me, etc. it was an awkward conversation, hard to shrink a weeks worth of happenings and events into a cohesive statement that answers the question "so, how have you been?" she told me she had been thinking of me atleast as much, if not more than when we were talking everyday. i told her the same was true for me. she had just got finished getting a new tattoo on her back, and i found myself getting jealous. the rules of my treatment center prohibit any body modification while i'm here. but, i digress. we had bought eachother christmas presents and not yet exchanged them. i asked her how she wanted to do this. we could either pass them between mutual friends or meet somewhere. her idea was to meet at an aa meeting we both attend sometimes and exchange them there, if that was okay with me. i would love to do that, but i'm not sure how good that would be for me, or for her. i'm not sure how i feel about the whole thing. i still love her. she still loves me. however, circumstances prevent us being together at the moment, or maybe ever. seeing eachother could cause us both harm, or it could be absolutely benign.

i am living the dream.

omd.

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