outlawtrick

Ok maybe Im not done yet. Maybe I still need to vent my lifes redundant problems into the endless void of the world wide web, in a somewhat seeming meaningless blog. I find the way I view life has changed a great deal sense before. My emotions seem almost nonexistent, and when Im in public everything seem to be somewhat dimmed as if I were viewing it from a monitor from afar. At times I feel like a lingering ghost in peoples lives and over the years thats all Ive really become, a ghost. Its like Ive been awaiting my death but it never comes. No matter how many times Ive been shot or put in harms way I always seem to come out the other side untouched. Its to the point were death is almost welcome, Ive gotten so used to being around it and every time I wish that it would take me next. Maybe I just need to get a better grip on things. Maybe I need to stop drinking so much.