Ok maybe Im not done yet. Maybe I still need to vent my lifes redundant problems into the endless void of the world wide web, in a somewhat seeming meaningless blog. I find the way I view life has changed a great deal sense before. My emotions seem almost nonexistent, and when Im in public everything seem to be somewhat dimmed as if I were viewing it from a monitor from afar. At times I feel like a lingering ghost in peoples lives and over the years thats all Ive really become, a ghost. Its like Ive been awaiting my death but it never comes. No matter how many times Ive been shot or put in harms way I always seem to come out the other side untouched. Its to the point were death is almost welcome, Ive gotten so used to being around it and every time I wish that it would take me next. Maybe I just need to get a better grip on things. Maybe I need to stop drinking so much.
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Sunday Oct 03, 2004
Ok the whole vegas thing didnt happen after all. My boy Jess had a … -
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Thursday Sep 30, 2004
Alright I was going to go to Vegas with my boy Jess this weekend, but… -
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Tuesday Sep 28, 2004
Alright I know that I havent been lurking around much sense Ive got b… -
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Saturday Sep 18, 2004
Guess whos back?...and gee golly em I fucked up. The past 7or 8 mont… -
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Tuesday Feb 10, 2004
This will be the last journal entre that i do in a long while. if see… -
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Saturday Feb 07, 2004
this coming thrusday (feb. 12) ill be leaving for a while, well a lon… -
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Thursday Feb 05, 2004
pretty much got out of work all day today. went to work, feel asleep… -
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Tuesday Feb 03, 2004
kinda a gray day. i was in a pretty much of a 'fuck you' mood all da… -
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Monday Feb 02, 2004
i got unbelievable drunk saturday night. i usually just have a few b… -
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Thursday Jan 29, 2004
another day of getting out of work, cannt get out of all of it but st…
And, I AM THE GHOST, you can't be one.
edited for fucked up spelling of simptom.
[Edited on Oct 05, 2004 8:15PM]