Jeeze. Things were looking up for me for a while. But I guess I was just supressing my emotions.
Well, Caitlyn goes in for alergy testing soon. It's very painful. They have to cut out a chunk of her skin. She's been getting aweful hives. Like ones that cover her entire body...including her face. The only thing that seems to cure it is air conditioning. Being somewhere cool. She can't go outside. What kind of life is that for a little girl. Never being able to go outside. Jeeze. I wish so badly that I could change places with her. The doctors still don't know what's wrong. For a while it was 'no news is good news'...but now they're worried. They still have down on their charts as cancer. Their worries are: what if we don't diagnose what ever it is in time and we can't cure it. What if it's something that we don't know what it is, and we can't cure it. I am so scared. I love her too much.
Charlie Schwarm pleaded not guilty. I wonder if he has the same asshole lawyer. I don't know if he'll win or not. The only other witness wasn't wearing glasses, and wasn't in the room. She's also on drugs. Needless to say; her credibility isn't high up there. Apparently he molested his girlfriends 5 yr old daughter. That scares me. I think about how old Chris was when that asshole was around. He was 3. And also how old I was...12. I'm straining so hard to remember more from that time in my life, but I can't remember anything. I know he didn't do anything to Chris or myself. It's just the fact that he was in our house. He stayed there for a while.
I'm trying so hard to make things happier for people. But I know I can't do jack shit. Everyone around me does so much for me. They put up with a lot of bullshit. They deserve happiness. Or at least some form of it.
Well, Caitlyn goes in for alergy testing soon. It's very painful. They have to cut out a chunk of her skin. She's been getting aweful hives. Like ones that cover her entire body...including her face. The only thing that seems to cure it is air conditioning. Being somewhere cool. She can't go outside. What kind of life is that for a little girl. Never being able to go outside. Jeeze. I wish so badly that I could change places with her. The doctors still don't know what's wrong. For a while it was 'no news is good news'...but now they're worried. They still have down on their charts as cancer. Their worries are: what if we don't diagnose what ever it is in time and we can't cure it. What if it's something that we don't know what it is, and we can't cure it. I am so scared. I love her too much.
Charlie Schwarm pleaded not guilty. I wonder if he has the same asshole lawyer. I don't know if he'll win or not. The only other witness wasn't wearing glasses, and wasn't in the room. She's also on drugs. Needless to say; her credibility isn't high up there. Apparently he molested his girlfriends 5 yr old daughter. That scares me. I think about how old Chris was when that asshole was around. He was 3. And also how old I was...12. I'm straining so hard to remember more from that time in my life, but I can't remember anything. I know he didn't do anything to Chris or myself. It's just the fact that he was in our house. He stayed there for a while.
I'm trying so hard to make things happier for people. But I know I can't do jack shit. Everyone around me does so much for me. They put up with a lot of bullshit. They deserve happiness. Or at least some form of it.
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Justice is like rain, we may wish for it, see it coming and desperately need it to sooth the heat, but you never know when that first drop is gonna land on your nose or slap you in the back of the neck. I hope whoever that guy is, he pays for his crimes, in spades.
we can hope and hope is good
Just don't loose hope.
I found out last night that my 15 year old meth head cousin ran away again. They found her because her boyfriend was required to do a drug test for his parole officer and he happened to mention that his girlfriend Stacie was pregnant. It turns out he had meth in his system which means she does too...did I mention she's pregnant? They both disappeared, but he's got a warrant out for his arrest for statutory rape, meth, violating his parole, and a couple other things. It turns out the reason he was in jail before was aggravated assault to one of his old girlfriends.
I can't believe we share some of the same genes.