I've been in a very strange mood lately. Like I don't want to be noticed by anyone, yet I'm sick of being invisible to everyone. I hide in the back where no one can find me and get sad when I'm all alone. I avoid everyone I can and wish that I could dance with them. The weirdest part of all right now, is although I'm crying, I'm happy. It's a very strange sad. More like I feel like my happiness is fake. I had fun tonight. I tried to make myself as invisible as possible, yet people still talked to me. I also didn't have any panic attacks today while chilling at deaf dog, which also made me happy. I think my biggest thing that I need right now is someone to cuddle with. I haven't done that in a long time...I just want to lie down with someone for a while...meh. I'm gunna stop being so damn depressing and shut up now.
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Current Crush: my right hand.
You're right handed? For some reason I pictured you as a lefty.