The biggest thing I've tried lately is being an SG hopeful. I've wanted to for over ten years. I always felt at home on the site before when I was a member in highschool. I was always inspired by the girls and their uniqueness and no shame in their game kinda attitude. I had some obstacles since I began with my boyfriend....I can only imagine him being older, he did not grow up with SG like I did so to him it was soft porn and nothing more. but I have told him all the things about SG that make it way more then that. it's a community, it's women empowerment. it's so many things. but in the conflict I found myself in a deep depression.. it shows how much I need to be on SG because I was like a cat without wiskers. Lately. It's been some of the hardest times for me. I usually play with my kids and give them my full attention when I'm around them. But so much pressure from different things got me into this weird funk.
But finally things are looking up again. With his new understanding, and acceptance, My boyfriend is supporting me in ways that well, we both thought impossible. To me a SG hopeful brings up so many questions for your boyfriend. He has come such a long way and with the force of us supporting each other I can fully enjoy and embrace myself in and out of SG.
I intend on doing some really great sets in the next few months. I have two that are outside. So I'm looking forward to doing my next set inside where I'll have the comfort of well..being inside. There are good things about both kinds of sets. But I know inside gives the girl the main focus. I look forward to giving my two kids the attention they deserve and not having to work as a CNA. I was not looking forward to having to do that as I have fatigue issues and working as a CNA would have made me want to sleep any time I was home. But now I get to be on SG. Do art. And live how I want! I'm so excited and fortunate. My boyfriend and I were just talking about how women are so strong. But in our own. Deep rooted. Emotions. Intuitions. And flexibility. We are vessels of nature. Important and vibrant. The world is seeming to transition into a more balanced place where men are allowed to show emotion. And women are encouraged to be women and be themselves. Loving and healing. Both sexes are in their own ways. When each can portray their true nurturing ways....there is infinite potential and enjoyment for both. Im learning so much since beginning my journey on SG. About myself. About others. About not judging how people live, and about feeling like I can truly live a life that I always dreamed of. I'm living instead of being afraid to live or, " playing it safe" stepping into my own desires brings out the real fire in life. I also got some money to do my next few tattoos that I've been dying to do. Can't wait to show you guys!!!!
Osiruss
