But I've always been my own person. And I've taught my daughter to think for herself. I always ask her what she thinks. And I give her both sides of the story about things we encounter so she can make her own decisions. She knows I'm wild. She knows I'm an ex addict. And she knows to be strong and to be who she is and wants to be despite what I do or what other day. I've engrained that in her over and over. . I honestly will explain it to her in a few years more in depth, but Right now she is only 7.But of course she has seen pics and what not and she has a pretty good idea of what it is because I do not like keeping things from her.
I said "mommy wants to be a model you know that" " and a goofy one" I said to make light of it.
she says she knows and just laughs at me. She knows I'm me and she is her own person. It's like my mom thinks that since I'm a SGH that I have no concern for her sexual safety. And in fact it's very opposite. Since I was a wild child I'm very concerned and conscious of her and her safety. I told her. You know boyfriends can come after your 15 . It's better to be strong and focus on school so you can be what you want to be when you grow up!!! Instead of dropping out of highschool like I did and going back to college when you are 25!!!
It's amazing but I just know in my gut that me doing what I'm doing does not affect her in a bad way. I tell her the human body is not to be ashamed of. But we keep to ourselves until we are older and wiser!. I have to live my shadow side. My whole self as a mother. I am happier since joining SG. And I try to keep the photos private and not let her in on it too much but she is smart.. it's a tricky thing....but God damn my main fucking priority is my daughter and her growth, her individualities and that's the thing that I know will make her live the life SHE wants. She is so different then me. So smart. Reads like a machine. I just honestly feel judged by my mom but . Of course I knew joining SG would cause some questions to arise out of those who know me.....I'm happy.... and I'll always make sure my daughter is safe and happy
