So.... fate seems to be using me as a foot ball atm...This whole situation that my life is atm is kind of warpped, let me try to clarify it all.
First item: Well for the last couple weeks I have wondered if my X is pregnant (not by me, don't get nervous). I can tell something is diffrent around her, her aura and energy patterns are not normal, add to this she is flirting with her BF's best friend. This is kind of twacked in and of it self because when she left, instead of getting angry I moved to try and understand what she was thinking, so in the long run I could forgive. Her Current BF is a really nice guy and treats her well but I'm afraid he may get screwed over c'est la vie. But I had a dream where I confronted her and we talked and she told me everything, she was pregnant, she liked her BF's friend but she wanted to end it with him but didint know how. In the dream I gave her the same advice that I would give her outside of it..... thell the other guy she wants to stay with the father(because she still loved him too) just tell him the truth.... it's always the best route, even if it's painful. This situation is minor... I still care for my x... I just will never take her back, she hurt me too much, besides we work better as friends anyway
Secondly: My friend in virginia is coming home, her marrage is/has fallen apart the guy is a dick to her, just like all the guys before him. Well she called me the other day and asked if she could stay with me while she gets on her feet up here, of course I said yes. I don't know what this means.... a couple days ago I wanted to move, now it seems as if fate has said, nope yer stayin here. This girl is gorgeous.....I've known her for 6 years now and twice she has wished I was single, and when I became single this year and lamented the fact that I acctually single she was like "well if I wasin't married I would date you" >.< ah well....
I just needed a place to rant and muse aloud.
Curent song: Vertigo U2
Current mood: Giddy
First item: Well for the last couple weeks I have wondered if my X is pregnant (not by me, don't get nervous). I can tell something is diffrent around her, her aura and energy patterns are not normal, add to this she is flirting with her BF's best friend. This is kind of twacked in and of it self because when she left, instead of getting angry I moved to try and understand what she was thinking, so in the long run I could forgive. Her Current BF is a really nice guy and treats her well but I'm afraid he may get screwed over c'est la vie. But I had a dream where I confronted her and we talked and she told me everything, she was pregnant, she liked her BF's friend but she wanted to end it with him but didint know how. In the dream I gave her the same advice that I would give her outside of it..... thell the other guy she wants to stay with the father(because she still loved him too) just tell him the truth.... it's always the best route, even if it's painful. This situation is minor... I still care for my x... I just will never take her back, she hurt me too much, besides we work better as friends anyway
Secondly: My friend in virginia is coming home, her marrage is/has fallen apart the guy is a dick to her, just like all the guys before him. Well she called me the other day and asked if she could stay with me while she gets on her feet up here, of course I said yes. I don't know what this means.... a couple days ago I wanted to move, now it seems as if fate has said, nope yer stayin here. This girl is gorgeous.....I've known her for 6 years now and twice she has wished I was single, and when I became single this year and lamented the fact that I acctually single she was like "well if I wasin't married I would date you" >.< ah well....
I just needed a place to rant and muse aloud.
Curent song: Vertigo U2
Current mood: Giddy
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Unfortunately I am unable to be as self destructive as I wish. I would love to go out and kick back more than my share of Kirin Ichiban. But, I willl have plenty of time for that once I get.... Well you know.
I am not in the highest of spirits but that will pass. I am Just tired and peevish after some much needed rest of the body and mind and I will be fine.
Trying to mentally prepare yourself for the unexpected is very difficult. I always try to control what you can and let the rest take care of it's self. Easier said than done.
K
Besides, my father has a deal with his gods and everything is taken care of and I believe that.
I hope all is well with you and your babies.