Monday Aug 13, 2007

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its my second night in Poland and i am bored. soo soooo bored.
no actually im not bored,im tired and upset and pissed off and unhappy and uncomfortable and i could be doing other things but nothing quite distracts you from feelings quite as much as pointless whatever on the internet. and music to space out to.
fuck this is boring.
poland is boring. no one should come here ever.
oh wait,its probably just for me. whatever. fuck
fuck you
i wonder how many random-non-friends-on-sg-people read this.
i need to do a million things
i wish i didnt know anyone and i could do a million things all by myself and then jsut appear and be completely formed and something whatever. my lies are so transparent i cant even utter them.
my mother radiates hostile 'vibes' at me. unpleasant.
would he read this? would he care?
fuck!
...and you make a concentrated effort to stop something but it dosnt stop and you end up having to distract yourself all the time not to think coz it wont stop
im so pessimistic my thoughts sabotage themselves. my most optimistic thoughts turn out to be sadly ironic or spitefully bitter and cynical. i was never very comfortable with myself.
can the doors ever be opened safely? has everything died behind them? can the spikes be filed down so i can stop being uncomfortable with myself?
stupid stupid

so anyone got any awesome money making ideas?
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philosophocles:
the best way to make money is not to spend it. live in a box and work as an investment consultant. Keep all your money in the bank and only buy what you need in that moment - keep no possessions other than the few clothes you might want to have. Get books from the library. Carpool with co-workers or walk everywhere. Shower at a healthclub or similar establishment - or make friends with somebody who will let you use their shower a couple times a week. Pet other people's dogs and comment about how nice it would be to have one of your own, but never actually have one of your own. Visit all the different cafes, restaurants, clothing stores, book stores, and anywhere else that plays music and see what you like most. Go to guitar shops and play their guitars for hours and then leave without buying anything. Plant tomato seeds in the yard of somebody who obviously pays little or no attention to what grows on their property, and then feed off those. Take your business suits to different dry-cleaners and only pick them up before you head to work, then drop it off at the end of the night and pick a different one up at a different cleaners the next day. Oh. And make friends with people who work in restaurants and grocery stores, as they can usually hook you up with good deals on cheap or free food.

Or you could sell cocaine.
diaz:
Thanks honey, its all very exciting!!!

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