I was sitting here thinking about the threesome thing and realized that I wouldn't mind if he wanted to have sex with someone else. Is that a bad thing? I mean, without me present, btw. In fact, it'd make me feel better to know that he's getting sexually satisfied fully even if it is by someone else. 
As I've stated before, I'm not fond of giving head but I'll eat a lady out for days. (I was going to put pussy but it feels weird to use if I'm not dirty talkin') 
Part of me feels like I'm trying to look for a woman that can fulfill him in all the ways he needs (which I can't) to he happy and secure in himself and relationship so he wouldn't overly mourn my loss if I did leave one day.
Apparently, I may be going out with my married apt. neighbor for July 4th. She and some of her married girlfriends are going clubbing and she invited me. She and her friends are mid-late 30's but I'm so desperate to go clubbing at least once while here that I jumped at the invite. No husbands allowed. I suppose alcohol will help me overcome the awkwardness.
Thank you, ultraman!
As I've stated before, I'm not fond of giving head but I'll eat a lady out for days. (I was going to put pussy but it feels weird to use if I'm not dirty talkin')
Part of me feels like I'm trying to look for a woman that can fulfill him in all the ways he needs (which I can't) to he happy and secure in himself and relationship so he wouldn't overly mourn my loss if I did leave one day.
Apparently, I may be going out with my married apt. neighbor for July 4th. She and some of her married girlfriends are going clubbing and she invited me. She and her friends are mid-late 30's but I'm so desperate to go clubbing at least once while here that I jumped at the invite. No husbands allowed.
I suppose alcohol will help me overcome the awkwardness.
Thank you, ultraman!
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Please for the sake of all that is sexy in the world go out and have a great time on the 4th. I can't believe you haven't been out clubbing since you've been over there. Germany in renowned for their great club scene from all that I've heard about it. I'm out.
Anyway, I was the one who opposed. Well, not like the way your hubby did. I always said, I'd probably do it but it'd have to be with a complete stranger. Someone who I wouldn't have to worry about being replaced with. Anyway, yes our experience was a mistake. But not as far as our relationship is concerned. It really was kind of a cool experience, until the bitch went crazy.
In a way, I think it's a good step that your husband is now considering it after all this time. His first response was probably that way because the way he was raised, or his religion, or whatever. It had nothing to do with his own sexual desires, but was a response to something he'd probably thought of as taboo or deviant or what have you. He's probably just coming around to the idea that it is not something that is morally wrong, or something that will threaten your standing in the community.
That's kind of why I didn't want to do it whenever it started coming up. I still don't want people to know what happened. Especially since the bitch is a fucking psycho that it happened with. Anyway, that's a huge ass long ass crazy ass story. If he e-mailed you the entire thing, I'm sure your eyes are tired from reading it!
My $0.02