I was thinking about a comment salomegoddess made a while back about marriage being the ultimate committment. And ideally, it should be...
But, the more I thought about it the more I felt that the only person that I couldn't ever imagine leaving or turning my back on is my daughter. I know its cheesy to quote song lyrics but in Lauryn Hill's 'Zion' I believe a line says, "I've never been in love like this before" or "I've never known a love like this before", something to that effect. But its so true.
I can't imagine loving someone like I love her. I may have more children, I may not, I don't know but as of now, with her I can't even put into words how fierce and entangled this love is.
In the old, black and white movie "Imitation of Life", the daughter (born light-skinned enough to pass for white) turns away from her black mother because of shame and self-hate of herself as a black woman and the work her mom does to get by (she's a maid, I believe, I haven't seen it in a while). Anywho, its only after her mother's death that she sees how wonderful her mother was and that she was doing the best she could for her and her daughter. So essentially the mother dies feeling despised by her own child. And I wondered, if my daughter despised me till my dying day would my love for her lessen? And I know that, no, it wouldn't.
On a different note, I loved the movie Team America World Police...I was almost in tears from laughing so hard. I also loved the movie The Life Aquatic...I did cry at the end of that and I am determined to get the soundtrack! Portugese is already an unbelievably soft, rolling, beautiful language but to have David Bowie songs adapted and sang in Portugese is something I can't resist.
But, the more I thought about it the more I felt that the only person that I couldn't ever imagine leaving or turning my back on is my daughter. I know its cheesy to quote song lyrics but in Lauryn Hill's 'Zion' I believe a line says, "I've never been in love like this before" or "I've never known a love like this before", something to that effect. But its so true.
I can't imagine loving someone like I love her. I may have more children, I may not, I don't know but as of now, with her I can't even put into words how fierce and entangled this love is.
In the old, black and white movie "Imitation of Life", the daughter (born light-skinned enough to pass for white) turns away from her black mother because of shame and self-hate of herself as a black woman and the work her mom does to get by (she's a maid, I believe, I haven't seen it in a while). Anywho, its only after her mother's death that she sees how wonderful her mother was and that she was doing the best she could for her and her daughter. So essentially the mother dies feeling despised by her own child. And I wondered, if my daughter despised me till my dying day would my love for her lessen? And I know that, no, it wouldn't.
On a different note, I loved the movie Team America World Police...I was almost in tears from laughing so hard. I also loved the movie The Life Aquatic...I did cry at the end of that and I am determined to get the soundtrack! Portugese is already an unbelievably soft, rolling, beautiful language but to have David Bowie songs adapted and sang in Portugese is something I can't resist.
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So you found out how to resize your pictures...hmm...I am curious to see if you will go a step further and start using photoshop...it is addictive you know...
Damn! I still haven't listened to anything by NIN...do you have anything in mp3?
regarding my dA ID...
Even though I envy you for having a daughter I still don't want to have a family... but if I ever do I would definitely want a daughter...I would love her madly
Hope to see you in dA also
I feel you on not being sure about the ultimate commitment of marriage of course people abuse it or sometimes realzie tha tthey don't realy love their partner like that but its something to strive for in my opinion- but I am also 100% there with you on the difference between loving your significant other and your own child. Your child is your flesh and blood but it is also the flesh and blood of your other half- so you see both you and he in your child.