So I ended up missing my mother's call because we went out to eat with some other couples. But when I got back she had sent me an email that said she loves me and is just trying to improve herself in that regard...loving as spoken of in the bible...love is long suffering and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, does not get puffed up, does not behave indecently, does not look for its own interests, does not become provoked. It does not keep account of the injury. It does not rejoice over unrighteousness......It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. She ended by saying shes praying for all of us and that she'll be there for me when I need her.
It was rather unexpected but pleasantly so. I know this doesn't mean that she agrees or approves with what I've chosen (since we still are going to have to talk about it), but knowing that she's not turning me away is very heartening. She's an amazing woman and she's my mom...for a child, for a daughter, your mom is 'ideal' and in my mind she is my role model...even if the strength I'm trying to maintain is defying her, she is who I learned it from. I just think it would be a horrible tribute to her and who she is, for me not to be who I am.
Dinner turned out to be rather fun. We went out with two other couples w/ children and a married guy friend whose wife is in the States. We went to an old, German tavern and had huge hamhocks and smoked beer...really, the beer had a bacon flavor to it, it was better than it sounds. Then we walked around for a bit, the guys stopped in a couple of pubs for (several) drinks (except my husband) then we went to a latenight icecream shop, had icecream and talked for a while. Two of the men were oggling (sp?) german women and making general fools of themselves by speaking loud, broken german. One of the wives was speaking about how she wanted to become a playboy model since she was 17 (she's now 30) and she only got in the back of an issue a couple of years ago. Then she went on to talk about how people describe her as the tall, skinny blond with huge boobs after she got her boob job. They are massive and shes 6 months pregnant so they do draw the eye. The married guy w/o his wife was talking about how his wife spends all his money, does drugs, and doesn't go home for days on end even though she has a child from a previous relationship to take care of. He's already admitted to my husband about cheating on his wife with the wife of a soldier in Iraq, an affair he's been carrying on since before he got married. Then he tells my husband he hopes his children are as cute as our baby girl (hehe, she's the cutest!!). My husband replies, "Well, I don't think that will be possible because she gets her cuteness from me." I roll my eyes, of course, and the guy replies, "Well, why don't you f**k my wife, then. She wouldn't mind." My mouth is wide open in shock and I immediately feel even worse for the guy (like my husband would even want to touch his wife with a 10ft pole even if we weren't married). Of course the drink has loosened his tongue but even though my husband and I are going through quite a bit he would never say something like that to another man. Meanwhile, the children are running around screaming in the background; parent's oblivious. My husband and I are sitting at the far end of the table, our baby asleep in her stroller, and even though we know we have a whole lot of stuff to dig through, we are somewhat smug in that we haven't put it all in the street...yet.
I don't know, sometimes when you are so wrapped up in your own problems you don't realize that others are going through just as bad or worse than you so I think last night helped give us a better perspective on things as well.
We are going to a cookout this afternoon with the same people so it should be an interesting Sunday.
It was rather unexpected but pleasantly so. I know this doesn't mean that she agrees or approves with what I've chosen (since we still are going to have to talk about it), but knowing that she's not turning me away is very heartening. She's an amazing woman and she's my mom...for a child, for a daughter, your mom is 'ideal' and in my mind she is my role model...even if the strength I'm trying to maintain is defying her, she is who I learned it from. I just think it would be a horrible tribute to her and who she is, for me not to be who I am.
Dinner turned out to be rather fun. We went out with two other couples w/ children and a married guy friend whose wife is in the States. We went to an old, German tavern and had huge hamhocks and smoked beer...really, the beer had a bacon flavor to it, it was better than it sounds. Then we walked around for a bit, the guys stopped in a couple of pubs for (several) drinks (except my husband) then we went to a latenight icecream shop, had icecream and talked for a while. Two of the men were oggling (sp?) german women and making general fools of themselves by speaking loud, broken german. One of the wives was speaking about how she wanted to become a playboy model since she was 17 (she's now 30) and she only got in the back of an issue a couple of years ago. Then she went on to talk about how people describe her as the tall, skinny blond with huge boobs after she got her boob job. They are massive and shes 6 months pregnant so they do draw the eye. The married guy w/o his wife was talking about how his wife spends all his money, does drugs, and doesn't go home for days on end even though she has a child from a previous relationship to take care of. He's already admitted to my husband about cheating on his wife with the wife of a soldier in Iraq, an affair he's been carrying on since before he got married. Then he tells my husband he hopes his children are as cute as our baby girl (hehe, she's the cutest!!). My husband replies, "Well, I don't think that will be possible because she gets her cuteness from me." I roll my eyes, of course, and the guy replies, "Well, why don't you f**k my wife, then. She wouldn't mind." My mouth is wide open in shock and I immediately feel even worse for the guy (like my husband would even want to touch his wife with a 10ft pole even if we weren't married). Of course the drink has loosened his tongue but even though my husband and I are going through quite a bit he would never say something like that to another man. Meanwhile, the children are running around screaming in the background; parent's oblivious. My husband and I are sitting at the far end of the table, our baby asleep in her stroller, and even though we know we have a whole lot of stuff to dig through, we are somewhat smug in that we haven't put it all in the street...yet.
I don't know, sometimes when you are so wrapped up in your own problems you don't realize that others are going through just as bad or worse than you so I think last night helped give us a better perspective on things as well.
We are going to a cookout this afternoon with the same people so it should be an interesting Sunday.
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zenichols:
I love reading your journals. My guess is that it's ooggling but it still doesn't loo just right..I knew lots of guys like the ones tht you were with out to dinner. Some of them I liked even with their faults and some of them wanted to kill because of there faults. Sleeping with another service members wife would have to be the worst fault. But that is the reality of service life when you are so close to people most of who are feeling vulnerable in one way or another because hardly anyone in the service when they have only been in a few enlistments is at home with where they are. Stay strong beautiful. Kiss your husband and baby.
josearcadio:
I hope tha you and your family can come out of all that alright, because the war was enough!!!, but now there is a posible divorce 
I wish you and and your family tons of wisdom and good health, a big hug to you! 
I wish you and and your family tons of wisdom and good health, a big hug to you!