I got a 33 at bowling! Yesssss.
The housemate isn't a housemate anymore.
Pittsburgh guy is fucking awkward. I'm not into it.
I hung out with Ichi for a bit on Saturday; a terrible idea. I ended up getting really uncomfortable and then upset after we left. I'm at the point of mourning even our friendship. It's really shitty, I really like him as a person. I have to try and let go of the 'maybe someday'.
Nik is pretty much fantastic. He took me out for my birthday last night; we've been talking and trying to hang out for a good year. One of the bars we went to was having a 80's music video night; one of the videos they played was:
Fuck yeah. The universe is telling me it's a good idea.
After the bar closed, he asked me if I wanted to do one of my favorite activities ever: swings! Swings at 2am is one of those perfect date things that I don't actually expect to happen. There's no awkwardness, just the expected nervousness.
He is the first person I've been excited about since Ichi. Just when I give up on everything, the universe helps me out again.
I had a rough past couple of days and made myself call my insurance to find a psychologist. Now I have to get myself to make an appointment. I can't count on someone else for happiness, I need help with this whole life and being a person thing.
The housemate isn't a housemate anymore.
Pittsburgh guy is fucking awkward. I'm not into it.
I hung out with Ichi for a bit on Saturday; a terrible idea. I ended up getting really uncomfortable and then upset after we left. I'm at the point of mourning even our friendship. It's really shitty, I really like him as a person. I have to try and let go of the 'maybe someday'.
Nik is pretty much fantastic. He took me out for my birthday last night; we've been talking and trying to hang out for a good year. One of the bars we went to was having a 80's music video night; one of the videos they played was:
Fuck yeah. The universe is telling me it's a good idea.
After the bar closed, he asked me if I wanted to do one of my favorite activities ever: swings! Swings at 2am is one of those perfect date things that I don't actually expect to happen. There's no awkwardness, just the expected nervousness.
He is the first person I've been excited about since Ichi. Just when I give up on everything, the universe helps me out again.
I had a rough past couple of days and made myself call my insurance to find a psychologist. Now I have to get myself to make an appointment. I can't count on someone else for happiness, I need help with this whole life and being a person thing.
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padre:
Life is just everywhere isn't it, I love that it doesn't pick one route & sticks with it
ardour:
Everytime I have a breakup I am devastated that I'll never be with a person who's exactly like that again. But I'll probably be kissing another pretty girl before too long, which is comforting.